Wednesday, February 9, 2011
i like two guys at the same time. this is bad. now when i go out with one, i feel sorry to the other. but then again, i'm not in a relationship with either of them. AH CRAP.
i feel like puking. damnit. it feels so much like a stomach flu. i'm in deep shit. T_T cough, phlegm, bad sore throat, stomachaches and now nausea?! ohcrapla~!
Mr. I asked me if we're dating, i said no. cause i was thinking of Mr. S too. S is the one i wanna run to everytime i feel down or out. he makes me feel like everything's gonna be alright. he's always there. Mr. I on the other hand, is what i've always wanted in a bf. sporty, older, but there's just something missing so far. and now i'm caught in between. i like both of them, but i rely more on S. S relates more to me. but then again, it may be because i've known S for a longer time.
damnit, my life is so confusing now. somehow, i think S is still more impt to me, though i've rejected a date with him on vday. because he's the only one that understands me so far...i dont know whats going on. i just hope Mr. I doesnt force me into making any decisions either. cause from the phone call just awhile ago, i know that we both have entirely different views on dating.
and it isnt good. >.<"
time for bed before i really run to puke. crap. :'(
i feel like puking. damnit. it feels so much like a stomach flu. i'm in deep shit. T_T cough, phlegm, bad sore throat, stomachaches and now nausea?! ohcrapla~!
Mr. I asked me if we're dating, i said no. cause i was thinking of Mr. S too. S is the one i wanna run to everytime i feel down or out. he makes me feel like everything's gonna be alright. he's always there. Mr. I on the other hand, is what i've always wanted in a bf. sporty, older, but there's just something missing so far. and now i'm caught in between. i like both of them, but i rely more on S. S relates more to me. but then again, it may be because i've known S for a longer time.
damnit, my life is so confusing now. somehow, i think S is still more impt to me, though i've rejected a date with him on vday. because he's the only one that understands me so far...i dont know whats going on. i just hope Mr. I doesnt force me into making any decisions either. cause from the phone call just awhile ago, i know that we both have entirely different views on dating.
and it isnt good. >.<"
time for bed before i really run to puke. crap. :'(
spin me silly, 4:02 AM.
