Tuesday, September 27, 2011
突然觉得好累好累。
每当我需要你的时候，你在哪呢？
生病的时候，你在练球。
练球后来探望我，看我好不好。。
没人陪我吃饭的时候，你选择睡觉。
还跟我说，不能太依赖你。
要自己有自己的生活活动。
但，感情不是要依赖着彼此吗？
反而，没人陪你吃饭的时候，我是第一个跑去陪你吃饭的。
只怕这样下去，我可能会越来越累。
不只为何哭了。只觉得好累，连回你的简讯我也觉得累。
但，你有在这时察觉我有点不对劲，就在这时，打给我了。
问我我在干什么，为何那么久才回应你的简讯。
还念我快点吃药去睡觉，身体才会好起来。
我好怀念这样的你。怀念那个痴痴追我的你。
怀念能跟你讲心理话的你。
怀念那个会露出自己脆弱的一面的你。那个想妈妈的你。
你察觉到我为何难过了吗？
对未来有好多疑问。。。我们真的能一起一直走下去吗？
好奇怪。。。为什么唯一一个能够让我笑的人，也是唯一一个能够让我哭得好残的人呢？？
confused.
有时，我狠我爱你。 :(
但，没有你也不是什么好办法。伤脑筋呀。。。!!!
每当我需要你的时候，你在哪呢？
生病的时候，你在练球。
练球后来探望我，看我好不好。。
没人陪我吃饭的时候，你选择睡觉。
还跟我说，不能太依赖你。
要自己有自己的生活活动。
但，感情不是要依赖着彼此吗？
反而，没人陪你吃饭的时候，我是第一个跑去陪你吃饭的。
只怕这样下去，我可能会越来越累。
不只为何哭了。只觉得好累，连回你的简讯我也觉得累。
但，你有在这时察觉我有点不对劲，就在这时，打给我了。
问我我在干什么，为何那么久才回应你的简讯。
还念我快点吃药去睡觉，身体才会好起来。
我好怀念这样的你。怀念那个痴痴追我的你。
怀念能跟你讲心理话的你。
怀念那个会露出自己脆弱的一面的你。那个想妈妈的你。
你察觉到我为何难过了吗？
对未来有好多疑问。。。我们真的能一起一直走下去吗？
好奇怪。。。为什么唯一一个能够让我笑的人，也是唯一一个能够让我哭得好残的人呢？？
confused.
有时，我狠我爱你。 :(
但，没有你也不是什么好办法。伤脑筋呀。。。!!!
spin me silly, 11:31 PM.
lets say i'm living through the darkest period of my life now... because i'm struggling with say "anxiety disorder" and i'm pretty negative about every other aspect of my life...
will he be there for me? will he accompany me through these dark days till i get better? or will he desert me?
i think i'm a pretty needy girl when it comes to feeling sick. i always hope for my bf to fuss over me, ask about me like 10 times a day, come over and accompany me or just lemme sleep on his lap so that at least i'm not suffering alone...
dear did come over after training to accompany me for a short while today. (: and asked me whether i had lunch and whether he needed to buy food for me... just a short while to check on me... he thought i was so sick i was tucked in bed so he had to come see for himself. and told me he was glad that i'm so happy to see him and that i'm not so sick in bed.
but he didn't fuss over me!!! :( so sad.
where's the dear that used to make me ginseng drink and deliver it to my house when i had a cough? :(( this is the difference between chasing and in a r/s.. :(
but i should be happy he came, though i wish he'd stay longer. :((
if there's one thing i realized, it's that i can no longer be a kid when i'm sick. hoping for my other half to fuss over me like i'm suffering from some major illness. if i love this guy, i have to be independent. independent enough to know he loves me from his actions, w/o him admitting it from his golden mouth, independent enough not to cry and run into anyone else's arms for the comfort i need.
i chose this guy, i have to stick to it. just sometimes, just sometimes i wish he'd be more expressive and more romantic...because i'm a girl, i need more love and reassurances too. especially when i'm unwell. bahhh. :((
just used my nasal spray... and took my allergy medicine. dear breathlessness, please faster go away for good and never come back. it's making my life hell. i feel so depressed over it!!!! i want to be the normal healthy mel. :(
sighs. please god, please let it go away.
spin me silly, 12:30 AM.
Monday, September 26, 2011
and i cant breathe properly again after a cup of teh o bing during supper. allergy to caffeine?
fml. it's crippling me, like seriously. i feel terrible.
i think its time to head to the doc to find out why...
fml. it's crippling me, like seriously. i feel terrible.
i think its time to head to the doc to find out why...
spin me silly, 2:13 AM.
Sunday, September 25, 2011
went to find dear at his place, and K.O-ed over there. damnit. i think there must be some kinda magic spell on his bed or aircon or something. i end up sleeping like a pig every time i'm there. maybe that's why he always sleeps like a pig. lol.
in the end he woke me up by kissing me on the cheeks and saying "dear, wake up wake up. i'm hungry, it's time for lunch!!" hahahaha. wthh. when it comes to food, tsk!
he was supposed to accompany me to jurong point to shop for stationery for school after lunch. but i was so tired i headed back to his place and continued sleeping. -___-"
ended up kok, xf and kenneth had to come over to his place to mj with him instead. lol! oops.
:X
sighs. i kinda planned my school timetable around his training timings so that i can meet him before or after. but it looks like, this time it clashes. his trainings are 1-4pm this week. my classes? 3.30-630pm. i cant get any luckier... -_-" oh well.
time to sleep. my head hurts. bth already. shan't wait for him to come back from powerhouse le...
debating whether to bowl 9 pin tap tomorrow with sy and larry. i cant even hit pockets how to bowl 9 pins on first shot? joke ah?! sighs. i'm so demoralized over my bowling.
in the end he woke me up by kissing me on the cheeks and saying "dear, wake up wake up. i'm hungry, it's time for lunch!!" hahahaha. wthh. when it comes to food, tsk!
he was supposed to accompany me to jurong point to shop for stationery for school after lunch. but i was so tired i headed back to his place and continued sleeping. -___-"
ended up kok, xf and kenneth had to come over to his place to mj with him instead. lol! oops.
:X
sighs. i kinda planned my school timetable around his training timings so that i can meet him before or after. but it looks like, this time it clashes. his trainings are 1-4pm this week. my classes? 3.30-630pm. i cant get any luckier... -_-" oh well.
time to sleep. my head hurts. bth already. shan't wait for him to come back from powerhouse le...
debating whether to bowl 9 pin tap tomorrow with sy and larry. i cant even hit pockets how to bowl 9 pins on first shot? joke ah?! sighs. i'm so demoralized over my bowling.
spin me silly, 2:54 AM.
Saturday, September 24, 2011
dinner plans got cancelled. :(
but its ok, went airport to pick dad up and then headed to ecp for seafood dinner with my family. i still love the beach and the sea breeze so much... (:
xf brought dear out for supper since 10pm, and they are still not home yet :(
i waiting for his call so i know what time to meet him tomorrow! i dont like to leave things till last minute :(
time to go try sleep and hope i hear his call later. >.<"
there are self-doubts starting to ring in my head already, with regards to what i'm seeking for in my ideal relationship... because i need to know what i want outta this in the longer run... :(
but its ok, went airport to pick dad up and then headed to ecp for seafood dinner with my family. i still love the beach and the sea breeze so much... (:
xf brought dear out for supper since 10pm, and they are still not home yet :(
i waiting for his call so i know what time to meet him tomorrow! i dont like to leave things till last minute :(
time to go try sleep and hope i hear his call later. >.<"
there are self-doubts starting to ring in my head already, with regards to what i'm seeking for in my ideal relationship... because i need to know what i want outta this in the longer run... :(
spin me silly, 3:05 AM.
Friday, September 23, 2011
i've got 0830am class tomorrow.
and it's 1am already. gotta wake up at 7am, i cant sleep, so i called boyfriend and said "how, i cant sleep!!!"
he replied "去撞墙就能睡了咯~~"
-______-" i dont know whether to laugh or cry.
kinda missing him already. i wish he'll tell me he misses me sometimes too. :(
i can only feel it whenever he calls randomly...
korean meat buffet with my clique later! (:
wheeee! gonna go class with my friend later. i'll be the only one who gets to go to class with her while she's still single! she's gonna ROM on saturday! LOL. :P
and it's 1am already. gotta wake up at 7am, i cant sleep, so i called boyfriend and said "how, i cant sleep!!!"
he replied "去撞墙就能睡了咯~~"
-______-" i dont know whether to laugh or cry.
kinda missing him already. i wish he'll tell me he misses me sometimes too. :(
i can only feel it whenever he calls randomly...
korean meat buffet with my clique later! (:
wheeee! gonna go class with my friend later. i'll be the only one who gets to go to class with her while she's still single! she's gonna ROM on saturday! LOL. :P
spin me silly, 1:05 AM.
Thursday, September 22, 2011
i love my blackcurrent candies munching monster. <3
dont know when i'll get to see dear over the next few days :(
i told him to keep saturday free for me, then i realized i've got my friend's ROM and my grandma's bday dinner. sadness!!! :(
he's got a photoshoot later. LOL. and he buanged his car again today. power lehhh. -_-"
sian. still feeling unwell since sunday night. jelly everywhere and tire easily and breathless... wth. dear saw me kinda breathless today and he got worried too. :( told me to go rest early though i left his place at like 11.20pm. lol! he was home alone. wish i could stayover again. but nahh. maybe some other time. now no mood cause he's got trainings in the morning, and school's started for me.
one more year of school, and i have to enter the workforce for 30 years. i'm so not looking forward to it. i'm scared that i'll suffer depression from work instead!!! and i'm scared of changing environments. because people will change and i dont want anything in my life now to change. i'm contented with the way things are now. i'm happy.
dont know when i'll get to see dear over the next few days :(
i told him to keep saturday free for me, then i realized i've got my friend's ROM and my grandma's bday dinner. sadness!!! :(
he's got a photoshoot later. LOL. and he buanged his car again today. power lehhh. -_-"
sian. still feeling unwell since sunday night. jelly everywhere and tire easily and breathless... wth. dear saw me kinda breathless today and he got worried too. :( told me to go rest early though i left his place at like 11.20pm. lol! he was home alone. wish i could stayover again. but nahh. maybe some other time. now no mood cause he's got trainings in the morning, and school's started for me.
one more year of school, and i have to enter the workforce for 30 years. i'm so not looking forward to it. i'm scared that i'll suffer depression from work instead!!! and i'm scared of changing environments. because people will change and i dont want anything in my life now to change. i'm contented with the way things are now. i'm happy.
spin me silly, 1:00 AM.
Tuesday, September 20, 2011
dear dear called me at 7 just now, to tell me he made it into the SEA games squad.
though the way he said it was "dear, i won't have alot of time for you already, how?" :(
liews! so sad! but his trainings are gonna double, plus school's starting so he's really gonna be really busy :( praying hard i got enough activities to keep me occupied till end november so that i wont be so needy of his company. :(
but i'm so happy for him (: always knew he'll make it to the squad. kor's brother chiew pang and jason yeong made it too! :D wheee!!
feeling sick so stayed at home the whole day...
i just suddenly couldn't breathe halfway while sleeping last night, like machiam a very very bad case of asthma, gasping for air and wanting to puke and breaking out in cold sweat... what's wrong with me?! my whole body has been feeling like jelly ever since :((
i'm worried mans. :(( like really worried.
dear told me to go to the docs if it happens again...
bowling league later. i'm in the slumps and upset about my bowling after SUniG yesterday. dont feel like bowling actually. probably gonna max my handicap again lo. :(
sighs.
even with dear's encouragement, (he ended the encouragement with "though you still need to work on your thumb and your release!!") :(
still... urghhh. whatever la.
though the way he said it was "dear, i won't have alot of time for you already, how?" :(
liews! so sad! but his trainings are gonna double, plus school's starting so he's really gonna be really busy :( praying hard i got enough activities to keep me occupied till end november so that i wont be so needy of his company. :(
but i'm so happy for him (: always knew he'll make it to the squad. kor's brother chiew pang and jason yeong made it too! :D wheee!!
feeling sick so stayed at home the whole day...
i just suddenly couldn't breathe halfway while sleeping last night, like machiam a very very bad case of asthma, gasping for air and wanting to puke and breaking out in cold sweat... what's wrong with me?! my whole body has been feeling like jelly ever since :((
i'm worried mans. :(( like really worried.
dear told me to go to the docs if it happens again...
bowling league later. i'm in the slumps and upset about my bowling after SUniG yesterday. dont feel like bowling actually. probably gonna max my handicap again lo. :(
sighs.
even with dear's encouragement, (he ended the encouragement with "though you still need to work on your thumb and your release!!") :(
still... urghhh. whatever la.
spin me silly, 12:44 AM.
Sunday, September 18, 2011
i may have bowled like shit...
but watching dear bowl so happily with raymond yiquan and ja,
i'm contented. (:
and ja's pretty friendly!
told dear i was pretty disappointed with myself over my performance today. and he sent me a pretty long encouragement text. it made me feel alot better. thanks dear. (:
pretty much still love forehead kisses <3
mich and i got bored halfway, so we strolled to citysquare mall and talked about stuffs along the way..she's like an older sister i never had. (: she had her yoguru, i had my mcflurry. and we both ended up only being able to eat half a plate of rice each.. lol.
school's starting...sea games trainings will also be intensive soon (if he gets selected) i hope everything will remain the same as it is now... :(
bth already. time to sleep!!
but watching dear bowl so happily with raymond yiquan and ja,
i'm contented. (:
and ja's pretty friendly!
told dear i was pretty disappointed with myself over my performance today. and he sent me a pretty long encouragement text. it made me feel alot better. thanks dear. (:
pretty much still love forehead kisses <3
mich and i got bored halfway, so we strolled to citysquare mall and talked about stuffs along the way..she's like an older sister i never had. (: she had her yoguru, i had my mcflurry. and we both ended up only being able to eat half a plate of rice each.. lol.
school's starting...sea games trainings will also be intensive soon (if he gets selected) i hope everything will remain the same as it is now... :(
bth already. time to sleep!!
spin me silly, 11:51 PM.
went for lunch at RCC with family and 2 baby cousins and both grandmas.
i drove to Tuas!! :D 110km/hr on the expressway somemore...mum made me do it -_-"
heng dear dear taught me how to activate the wiper before. (he drove the car on a rainy night before :X ) cause even mum didnt know and it started raining cats and dogs on AYE.
my parking still epic fail... i tried parking in empty lots with no cars at all nearby. and i still took like 2 minutes to get the car in :( fml.
afterwhich, i went to find dear. dad dropped me off at his place cause it was nearby. (:
tar pau-ed chicken wings for him and nua-ed at his place with him cause he was home alone and sleeping like a piggg!!
he's made me into a lazy bugger too mans. staying at his place and watching taiwanese dramas with him.
persuaded him to pei me and mich to dinner at timbre afterwhich. am a happy happy girl! (:
<3
and in 7+ hours, it'll be our SUniG games. i'm so scared... i've been having nightmares since last night mans. i couldn't sleep!!! :(
HOW. i dont want dear's fellow sg teammates to see his gf bowl like shit... :(( holy crap. i'm scared...i cant even throw my ball accurately these days, i keep sending out. urghhh... please do not hit gutters tomorrow mel. i hope i can pick up my spares too, especially pin 7.. :((
mich's coming down to support us tomorrow! wheee! (:
i drove to Tuas!! :D 110km/hr on the expressway somemore...mum made me do it -_-"
heng dear dear taught me how to activate the wiper before. (he drove the car on a rainy night before :X ) cause even mum didnt know and it started raining cats and dogs on AYE.
my parking still epic fail... i tried parking in empty lots with no cars at all nearby. and i still took like 2 minutes to get the car in :( fml.
afterwhich, i went to find dear. dad dropped me off at his place cause it was nearby. (:
tar pau-ed chicken wings for him and nua-ed at his place with him cause he was home alone and sleeping like a piggg!!
he's made me into a lazy bugger too mans. staying at his place and watching taiwanese dramas with him.
persuaded him to pei me and mich to dinner at timbre afterwhich. am a happy happy girl! (:
<3
and in 7+ hours, it'll be our SUniG games. i'm so scared... i've been having nightmares since last night mans. i couldn't sleep!!! :(
HOW. i dont want dear's fellow sg teammates to see his gf bowl like shit... :(( holy crap. i'm scared...i cant even throw my ball accurately these days, i keep sending out. urghhh... please do not hit gutters tomorrow mel. i hope i can pick up my spares too, especially pin 7.. :((
mich's coming down to support us tomorrow! wheee! (:
spin me silly, 12:12 AM.
Saturday, September 17, 2011
thank you dear. i love your warm arms. they never fail to make me feel a whole lot better. it's like the safest place on earth to me. like nothing can ever hurt me whenever i'm held tightly in your arms...
goodnight world! (:
spin me silly, 3:27 AM.
Friday, September 16, 2011
i f* up. i broke the feeble trust.
i was so filled with doubts i didn't know what to do...so i just spoke my confusion, without considering the after effects of everything.
i stirred up more shit because of my doubts.
but after calling kor and her and crying over the phone together, i realized that she's genuinely wanting things to be how they were before, although she knew it'll take time to slowly slowly inch back towards the part where we can share anything and not worry we'll be bitched about by each other, behind the scenes.
i'm sorry. i realized i've been a bitch today and it doesn't feel good too...
i made my teammates doubt each other too. and they have to work with each other in the same company. i'm not a good person. i don't know how to rectify my blunder now. i did the damage. i'm not sure whether i ruined a friendship, and at the same time, ruined the feeble link between hers and my own new friendship.
feeling so lousy.
i added even more problems to the ones she already has. with work, with friends and all...
and this ain't me...
have been crying the past 3 hours...
but because of this, i'm now genuinely willing to try to make this friendship work...for myself this time, not because i dont want this issue to be in my relationship. not to make my boyfriend or my godbro happy.
arghh. it's so trying to try to keep my swollen eyes opened. urghhh.
finally gonna bathe...at 4.15am in the morning...
with my eyes like that, i think dear will be frightened to go out with me tomorrow. :(
maybe i should just hide over at his place...at least no one can see him hold a monster looking girl and walking around... :((
was so frightened by him just now. he said "you make me feel like jumping off from the 8th storey now you know". never seen him so agitated before. i replied him after i got off the phone with both of them.
"if you jump off the 8th storey, know that i'm gonna jump off the 31st"
need to bathe now or it'll be 5am..
i was so filled with doubts i didn't know what to do...so i just spoke my confusion, without considering the after effects of everything.
i stirred up more shit because of my doubts.
but after calling kor and her and crying over the phone together, i realized that she's genuinely wanting things to be how they were before, although she knew it'll take time to slowly slowly inch back towards the part where we can share anything and not worry we'll be bitched about by each other, behind the scenes.
i'm sorry. i realized i've been a bitch today and it doesn't feel good too...
i made my teammates doubt each other too. and they have to work with each other in the same company. i'm not a good person. i don't know how to rectify my blunder now. i did the damage. i'm not sure whether i ruined a friendship, and at the same time, ruined the feeble link between hers and my own new friendship.
feeling so lousy.
i added even more problems to the ones she already has. with work, with friends and all...
and this ain't me...
have been crying the past 3 hours...
but because of this, i'm now genuinely willing to try to make this friendship work...for myself this time, not because i dont want this issue to be in my relationship. not to make my boyfriend or my godbro happy.
arghh. it's so trying to try to keep my swollen eyes opened. urghhh.
finally gonna bathe...at 4.15am in the morning...
with my eyes like that, i think dear will be frightened to go out with me tomorrow. :(
maybe i should just hide over at his place...at least no one can see him hold a monster looking girl and walking around... :((
was so frightened by him just now. he said "you make me feel like jumping off from the 8th storey now you know". never seen him so agitated before. i replied him after i got off the phone with both of them.
"if you jump off the 8th storey, know that i'm gonna jump off the 31st"
need to bathe now or it'll be 5am..
spin me silly, 4:03 AM.
Thursday, September 15, 2011
today marks the new start of a fragile friendship that has been broken over the past few months. scared as i am, (i guess she probably feels the same about this), i'm willing to put in another bout of faith and hope it really works for us this time. (:
i want the guys to be happy too.
thank you dear. thank you for helping because you can see how much i've been hurting... (: i think it really means something if i could actually cry over it for a whole day...the whole of yesterday..
dear saw my super small swollen eyes in the morning, and he just hugged me in his warm arms. i went over to hug him tight cause i saw him emo-ing over facebook and twitter about missing his mum... didnt want him to feel lonely, just wanted to give him some love, some company.
but ended up so tired because i only slept 4 hours the previous day before i dragged myself up to look for him. fell asleep at his place... and heehee, the next think i remembered was that he kissed me on the cheeks and said "dear dear, wake up le ahh. its time for lunch~~" *grinning ear to ear* <3
and we ended up getting drenched and running home together in the rain. it was fun! (:
he wanted me to wait for him to go home and get the car to ferry me so i wont be caught in the rain, but oh well, i preferred to run with him! :P
dear sneaked kiss me in the lift just now again!!! i swore i caught my breath and my heart skipped a beat again!! omggggg. chum...i sound like i'm madly in love.. no mel, no mel, remember you said you'll shield yourself so you wouldn't get hurt badly like last year's again?? no matter how sweet a guy may be to you, still gotta shield yourself!!! never trust 100% okay?! D:
wrote dear a love letter for our 6th month and bought him 3 pairs of his training socks because his seriously cmi already. lol. practical gifts :X (dont think he really read it yet though..he K.O-ed already!)
goodnight world! 6 hours to sleep..
i want the guys to be happy too.
thank you dear. thank you for helping because you can see how much i've been hurting... (: i think it really means something if i could actually cry over it for a whole day...the whole of yesterday..
dear saw my super small swollen eyes in the morning, and he just hugged me in his warm arms. i went over to hug him tight cause i saw him emo-ing over facebook and twitter about missing his mum... didnt want him to feel lonely, just wanted to give him some love, some company.
but ended up so tired because i only slept 4 hours the previous day before i dragged myself up to look for him. fell asleep at his place... and heehee, the next think i remembered was that he kissed me on the cheeks and said "dear dear, wake up le ahh. its time for lunch~~" *grinning ear to ear* <3
and we ended up getting drenched and running home together in the rain. it was fun! (:
he wanted me to wait for him to go home and get the car to ferry me so i wont be caught in the rain, but oh well, i preferred to run with him! :P
dear sneaked kiss me in the lift just now again!!! i swore i caught my breath and my heart skipped a beat again!! omggggg. chum...i sound like i'm madly in love.. no mel, no mel, remember you said you'll shield yourself so you wouldn't get hurt badly like last year's again?? no matter how sweet a guy may be to you, still gotta shield yourself!!! never trust 100% okay?! D:
wrote dear a love letter for our 6th month and bought him 3 pairs of his training socks because his seriously cmi already. lol. practical gifts :X (dont think he really read it yet though..he K.O-ed already!)
goodnight world! 6 hours to sleep..
spin me silly, 1:46 AM.
Tuesday, September 13, 2011
dear called me at 12 midnight to wish me happy 6th month!!! in elmo voice!!! hahaha!
so cute please. :P
and it was only after i said "6 months is half a year together already you know?!" then it dawned on him half a year flew by with me. hahaha.
"i lost my freedom for half a year already?! FML!"
-_-" that's so like him. hahaha!
i guess we both are realistic people. much as we want each other in our lives, we know that there'll be circumstances when things won't last forever. so we're trying our best, holding on to faith that we can walk down the road together in the years to come and hopefully end up getting married.
it hasn't been easy at all, we had our honeymoon periodS, yes period with an S because there's more than one. we had our misunderstandings, we had our quarrels, we had our ups and downs like every other couple...
half year on, we're still trying to understand each other more, given we got together only 1.5 months into knowing each other... but slowly, life's getting better. (:
thank you for being in my life the past half a year dear. although for 2 months out of the 6, it wasn't all that easy for me, when we went through a horrible rough time thenn...
still, i'm thankful for having you in my life. (:
all the little bickers we have, the teasing, the fooling around, hahaha, it's been a great half a year doing all these with you. (:
and i <3 you!!
may we continue like this for the many years to come! then again, i dont dare look too far into the future, so i would say, for the next half a year to come first! (: (he wont read this though. he doesn't know about my blog! lol.) :P
so cute please. :P
and it was only after i said "6 months is half a year together already you know?!" then it dawned on him half a year flew by with me. hahaha.
"i lost my freedom for half a year already?! FML!"
-_-" that's so like him. hahaha!
i guess we both are realistic people. much as we want each other in our lives, we know that there'll be circumstances when things won't last forever. so we're trying our best, holding on to faith that we can walk down the road together in the years to come and hopefully end up getting married.
it hasn't been easy at all, we had our honeymoon periodS, yes period with an S because there's more than one. we had our misunderstandings, we had our quarrels, we had our ups and downs like every other couple...
half year on, we're still trying to understand each other more, given we got together only 1.5 months into knowing each other... but slowly, life's getting better. (:
thank you for being in my life the past half a year dear. although for 2 months out of the 6, it wasn't all that easy for me, when we went through a horrible rough time thenn...
still, i'm thankful for having you in my life. (:
all the little bickers we have, the teasing, the fooling around, hahaha, it's been a great half a year doing all these with you. (:
and i <3 you!!
may we continue like this for the many years to come! then again, i dont dare look too far into the future, so i would say, for the next half a year to come first! (: (he wont read this though. he doesn't know about my blog! lol.) :P
spin me silly, 1:42 AM.
Monday, September 12, 2011
dear stayed up to fetch me for supper and then home. <3 (:
even though he complainedddd ALOT, i'm happy!
the best part was leaning on his shoulders while he drove, and the suddenly long sneak kiss back, in the lift while i was hugging him and trying to give him a peck so that he would stop complaining! :P
dear: "eh, stop kissing me!!! are you ever gonna stop??"
me: "hahaha, NO."
dear: *sudden sneak kiss attack*
my heart literally skipped a beat!!! i went silent for a split moment there. just stunned. cause i'm usually the one who initiates and disturbs him. :|
sleeping happy! (: <3 heeeheee.
loves!!!
even though he complainedddd ALOT, i'm happy!
the best part was leaning on his shoulders while he drove, and the suddenly long sneak kiss back, in the lift while i was hugging him and trying to give him a peck so that he would stop complaining! :P
dear: "eh, stop kissing me!!! are you ever gonna stop??"
me: "hahaha, NO."
dear: *sudden sneak kiss attack*
my heart literally skipped a beat!!! i went silent for a split moment there. just stunned. cause i'm usually the one who initiates and disturbs him. :|
sleeping happy! (: <3 heeeheee.
loves!!!
spin me silly, 4:01 AM.
Sunday, September 11, 2011
(: that pink heart emoticon. hahaha. <3
spin me silly, 2:41 AM.
Saturday, September 10, 2011
quarrelled with dear yesterday afternoon. :(
due to miscommunication, we shouted at each other down the phone.
i hated it. really hated it. at least we didnt end the call on a bad note.
went to stayover at dear's later in the evening.
he opened the door and i entered, not saying a thing to each other. but when we got to his room upstairs, he suddenly stood right in front of me, and said "i angrybird. you this stupid pigggg..dont do this again, or i'll box you ahhhh..." and gave me a big tight hug. and i just hugged him back. i wanted to cry then you know! :(
and, just nua-ing around and spending time with him, watching his shows together (because no nice movie to watch on funshion now), cuddling together and talking about daily stuffs and gossips, makes me happy. whether he text girls or change dp picture on msn or whatever, i can just show my unhappiness and jealousy to him. i used to keep it all in last time... and i realized, by speaking my mind, dear answers to it too. he can tell how i feel. (:
he even got me a toothbrush so that whenever i stayover i can use! :P
but still, its so hard to understand this guy sometimes!!! TSK.
like Larry said, i chose to love this man, and i gotta stick to it and rough it out, if i ever want to have a future with him...
sighs, i wish i was staying with him. seriously. :( cause everyday with him, even if it seems boring, it never is to me.. (:
dear's partnering jason yeong for sunig! haha.
and i'm partnering anna nicole! (: yay!!! tbh, both of us are happy our partners are each other... :X
bowled pretty well today.. apart from the first game of 123...and david wants me to drill a Columbia's Bedlam (dear has it too -.-). he told dear to drill it for me, and asked me to pay back by installment. hmmm... i wonder how painful the damage will be to my pocket...
hope my days are gonna be sunny for awhile after this. really dont wish to fight with dear again anytime soon...
due to miscommunication, we shouted at each other down the phone.
i hated it. really hated it. at least we didnt end the call on a bad note.
went to stayover at dear's later in the evening.
he opened the door and i entered, not saying a thing to each other. but when we got to his room upstairs, he suddenly stood right in front of me, and said "i angrybird. you this stupid pigggg..dont do this again, or i'll box you ahhhh..." and gave me a big tight hug. and i just hugged him back. i wanted to cry then you know! :(
and, just nua-ing around and spending time with him, watching his shows together (because no nice movie to watch on funshion now), cuddling together and talking about daily stuffs and gossips, makes me happy. whether he text girls or change dp picture on msn or whatever, i can just show my unhappiness and jealousy to him. i used to keep it all in last time... and i realized, by speaking my mind, dear answers to it too. he can tell how i feel. (:
he even got me a toothbrush so that whenever i stayover i can use! :P
but still, its so hard to understand this guy sometimes!!! TSK.
like Larry said, i chose to love this man, and i gotta stick to it and rough it out, if i ever want to have a future with him...
sighs, i wish i was staying with him. seriously. :( cause everyday with him, even if it seems boring, it never is to me.. (:
dear's partnering jason yeong for sunig! haha.
and i'm partnering anna nicole! (: yay!!! tbh, both of us are happy our partners are each other... :X
bowled pretty well today.. apart from the first game of 123...and david wants me to drill a Columbia's Bedlam (dear has it too -.-). he told dear to drill it for me, and asked me to pay back by installment. hmmm... i wonder how painful the damage will be to my pocket...
hope my days are gonna be sunny for awhile after this. really dont wish to fight with dear again anytime soon...
spin me silly, 10:28 PM.
Friday, September 9, 2011
if there's one thing i realized,
it's more tiring to watch people bowl, than to be the one bowling.
urgh. tired ttm.
Ian's nice but he can be such an asshole sometimes. seriously. dont comment on what you dont know. it was david who insisted on last year's SUniG format for this year's game, NOT BECAUSE I HAVE NO OPINIONS OKAY?! i think i havent used the f word in full for a long time until today. He say it until machiam i'm sucha puppet. seriously. wtf...
Goodnight world!
hope dear learns to appreciate me alot more :( dont like his one liners reply. i know he's tired and busy watching his shows sometimes, but hello, please spare a little thought for my feelings can? :(
sometimes i wonder why i love such a dumb ass...
anna and i are 2 confused souls.. but we have a common goal in mind this SUniG, and that's.. shan't say it. but we set it as a benchmark. i know it's not right to pit myself against that, but, i really really want to win, just this once. i think anna feels the way i feel too...
but first up, i hope i get a chance to play SUniG first...
goodnight world! (: gotta wake up early to make pink rambutan jellies for my wild boar. feed him until so fat, nobody else wants. HAHahaha (:
it's more tiring to watch people bowl, than to be the one bowling.
urgh. tired ttm.
Ian's nice but he can be such an asshole sometimes. seriously. dont comment on what you dont know. it was david who insisted on last year's SUniG format for this year's game, NOT BECAUSE I HAVE NO OPINIONS OKAY?! i think i havent used the f word in full for a long time until today. He say it until machiam i'm sucha puppet. seriously. wtf...
Goodnight world!
hope dear learns to appreciate me alot more :( dont like his one liners reply. i know he's tired and busy watching his shows sometimes, but hello, please spare a little thought for my feelings can? :(
sometimes i wonder why i love such a dumb ass...
anna and i are 2 confused souls.. but we have a common goal in mind this SUniG, and that's.. shan't say it. but we set it as a benchmark. i know it's not right to pit myself against that, but, i really really want to win, just this once. i think anna feels the way i feel too...
but first up, i hope i get a chance to play SUniG first...
goodnight world! (: gotta wake up early to make pink rambutan jellies for my wild boar. feed him until so fat, nobody else wants. HAHahaha (:
spin me silly, 2:23 AM.
Thursday, September 8, 2011
speak of the devil :X
rahhhhh~!
off to OCC to bowl! (:
rahhhhh~!
off to OCC to bowl! (:
spin me silly, 1:31 PM.
once again, he's suddenly lost the habit of texting me good morning again. this is so frustrating.
and when i called to wish him goodnight last night? he couldnt wait to hang up the phone. i hated that tone. it made me feel like an idiot.
why sia. why liddat?
how to have a 180 degrees change just like that?
fml la.
sometimes i really wonder if i'm unimportant. tbh, no guy has ever treated me like that and i still can accept it all the way without giving up long ago...
its like when he's alone and misses me he can be oh so nice, call me, ask me where i am and all...
but when there's bowling or when he has his clique, i'm long forgotten.
fml.
and when i called to wish him goodnight last night? he couldnt wait to hang up the phone. i hated that tone. it made me feel like an idiot.
why sia. why liddat?
how to have a 180 degrees change just like that?
fml la.
sometimes i really wonder if i'm unimportant. tbh, no guy has ever treated me like that and i still can accept it all the way without giving up long ago...
its like when he's alone and misses me he can be oh so nice, call me, ask me where i am and all...
but when there's bowling or when he has his clique, i'm long forgotten.
fml.
spin me silly, 1:12 AM.
i woke up at 1.15pm today, only to find dear at the dentist. LOL.
dentist! time to buy toto.
so tired already.
spent the whole afternoon in SIM doing SUniG admin stuffs with Larry.
then headed to clementi for Koi, and jurong point for dinner.
afterwhich dear called, and could tell he was missing me and bored (although he didnt say it luhhh. you know him and his pride. tsk.), so i went to find him, accompanied him for dinner till 11.15pm then headed home. i was angry with him because he swept my hand off when i tried to hold his after dinner. :( so i angried all the way back to his place, before he crept up silently and held my hand when we got back. hahaha. and also held my hands all the way to the mrt station. (:
but then after which he texted in a nonchalant way again. TSK. this guy is irritating ttm!
oh well.
jason yeong's coming for monday's training!!
dear said he's still the number 1 though. yes yes yes. number 1 in my heart too (that i wont say of course..if not his head will grow too big and probably EXPLODE, since it's already humongous to begin with. -_-")
goodnight world! gonna call him for 15 seconds and wish him goodnight then head to bed..
dentist! time to buy toto.
so tired already.
spent the whole afternoon in SIM doing SUniG admin stuffs with Larry.
then headed to clementi for Koi, and jurong point for dinner.
afterwhich dear called, and could tell he was missing me and bored (although he didnt say it luhhh. you know him and his pride. tsk.), so i went to find him, accompanied him for dinner till 11.15pm then headed home. i was angry with him because he swept my hand off when i tried to hold his after dinner. :( so i angried all the way back to his place, before he crept up silently and held my hand when we got back. hahaha. and also held my hands all the way to the mrt station. (:
but then after which he texted in a nonchalant way again. TSK. this guy is irritating ttm!
oh well.
jason yeong's coming for monday's training!!
dear said he's still the number 1 though. yes yes yes. number 1 in my heart too (that i wont say of course..if not his head will grow too big and probably EXPLODE, since it's already humongous to begin with. -_-")
goodnight world! gonna call him for 15 seconds and wish him goodnight then head to bed..
spin me silly, 1:06 AM.
Wednesday, September 7, 2011
i told dear to stop bullying me for just a day, cause i told him i gonna bth already. gimme a day off to empty and replenish 5 months and 3 weeks of bullying :(
i hope he didnt take it the wrong way though. cause tbh, thats how dear expresses his love. YES, HE IS THAT WEIRD. then again, whats new??? (his voice rings in my head when i say this.."huifen" cause new huifen -___-" ) ALAMAK. hahaha.
the key for relationships to survive, is honesty right? i guess i gotta start learning to be honest about how i feel about certain stuffs, if i dont wanna die trying to make him happy and only him happy.
and jazreel is awesomeee! watched her on WWC. she's like my idol since singapore opens. haha. the way she hits her perfect pockets, like she's cruising along her competitions with no stress! ohmygee. no.1, i cant reach that standard, probably unless you gimme 20 years more to do so, no.2, i cant reach that ball speed yet too, no.3, NOR THE ACCURACY. this is so sad. :(
remember mel, what's most important is your studies now. yes, you may love a man, who's top priority is bowling and to be a future coach and coaches no need degress, but still, study for yourself! you know your degree lasts, but relationships only have 50-50 chances of survival. so remember, studies first!!!
and just let the rest fall into place. if we're meant to be, we'll be together. if we aren't, then along the way, we'll just have to let it go. but for now, we're gonna continue trying to make it work! (:
if both works out then it'll be double happiness. hee. (:
i hope he didnt take it the wrong way though. cause tbh, thats how dear expresses his love. YES, HE IS THAT WEIRD. then again, whats new??? (his voice rings in my head when i say this.."huifen" cause new huifen -___-" ) ALAMAK. hahaha.
the key for relationships to survive, is honesty right? i guess i gotta start learning to be honest about how i feel about certain stuffs, if i dont wanna die trying to make him happy and only him happy.
and jazreel is awesomeee! watched her on WWC. she's like my idol since singapore opens. haha. the way she hits her perfect pockets, like she's cruising along her competitions with no stress! ohmygee. no.1, i cant reach that standard, probably unless you gimme 20 years more to do so, no.2, i cant reach that ball speed yet too, no.3, NOR THE ACCURACY. this is so sad. :(
remember mel, what's most important is your studies now. yes, you may love a man, who's top priority is bowling and to be a future coach and coaches no need degress, but still, study for yourself! you know your degree lasts, but relationships only have 50-50 chances of survival. so remember, studies first!!!
and just let the rest fall into place. if we're meant to be, we'll be together. if we aren't, then along the way, we'll just have to let it go. but for now, we're gonna continue trying to make it work! (:
if both works out then it'll be double happiness. hee. (:
spin me silly, 1:39 AM.
Tuesday, September 6, 2011
n this day of your life, Melissa, we believe God wants you to know ... that the world is as good as you see it is.
If you focus on the bad, you will see a 'bad' world. If you focus on the good, you will see goodness. Choose your focus carefully.
my focus is currently bad.
i'm becoming that crazy bitch that i was last year again, just because i've stopped working and have too much free time on my hands.
remember mel, you dont own him. he is himself. he'll tell you what he wants to tell you. and wont tell you what he doesn't wanna tell you. so stop being emo over the stuffs he doesnt share!
aiyooo. i need something else to focus on. i dont wanna only focus on this fella who's most afraid of a sticky gf. lol. and that's the last thing i wanna be too.
tired. bowled like shit today. average of 137.5 for 2 games :(
like seriously, wth is wrong with me? bowling slump for so long? ever since westbowl 2 weeks ago?!
come on man, mel. PICK UP YOUR SPARES!!! fishhh.
12 days to go...
dont feel so well :( cant breathe properly :(
yay. anna said she's gonna bring me to jb to shop bowl and eat! i wanna play go kart and paintball!
If you focus on the bad, you will see a 'bad' world. If you focus on the good, you will see goodness. Choose your focus carefully.
my focus is currently bad.
i'm becoming that crazy bitch that i was last year again, just because i've stopped working and have too much free time on my hands.
remember mel, you dont own him. he is himself. he'll tell you what he wants to tell you. and wont tell you what he doesn't wanna tell you. so stop being emo over the stuffs he doesnt share!
aiyooo. i need something else to focus on. i dont wanna only focus on this fella who's most afraid of a sticky gf. lol. and that's the last thing i wanna be too.
tired. bowled like shit today. average of 137.5 for 2 games :(
like seriously, wth is wrong with me? bowling slump for so long? ever since westbowl 2 weeks ago?!
come on man, mel. PICK UP YOUR SPARES!!! fishhh.
12 days to go...
dont feel so well :( cant breathe properly :(
yay. anna said she's gonna bring me to jb to shop bowl and eat! i wanna play go kart and paintball!
spin me silly, 12:15 AM.
Monday, September 5, 2011
loves it when he hugs me in his arms. (:
it's like nothing else matters there and then.
all the angstyness also dissipated into thin air...rather he was annoyed with me for the "an option, not a priority" status on my fb yesterday. oops. he's smarter than i thought. he knew it was about him. alamak. he had to rub salt by continuing to tease me saying "yes, you're an option!" -.-"
usually dear doesnt get affected by the stuffs i say. he used to just brush it off and ignore... cool. what a change. hahaha. :p
oh well, looks like he might attend training later? brought his 2 missions and 1 full tilt out.
time for a haircut!! (: gonna walk over to tiong bahru area for one. think it was where kor used to bring his ex for her haircut... >.<"
BACK. hair salon opens on..everyday EXCEPT mondays. gosh fml.
so i went to the tiong bahru plaza mooncake fair and bought bengawan snowskin mooncakes for dear and his family. $32 :( and its already 10% discounted.. ohmytiann. broke!! but chose the flavours i think dear will love? durian, mango, seaweed (yeah man. SEAWEED. lol.) and strawberry.
so sleepy now...carried so many heavy stuff and now my arms feel like jelly. crappp.
looks like sleeping deeply at his place for an hour earlier on wasnt sufficient... :(
time to shower and get rdy for chingyee to pick me! (:
it's like nothing else matters there and then.
all the angstyness also dissipated into thin air...rather he was annoyed with me for the "an option, not a priority" status on my fb yesterday. oops. he's smarter than i thought. he knew it was about him. alamak. he had to rub salt by continuing to tease me saying "yes, you're an option!" -.-"
usually dear doesnt get affected by the stuffs i say. he used to just brush it off and ignore... cool. what a change. hahaha. :p
oh well, looks like he might attend training later? brought his 2 missions and 1 full tilt out.
time for a haircut!! (: gonna walk over to tiong bahru area for one. think it was where kor used to bring his ex for her haircut... >.<"
BACK. hair salon opens on..everyday EXCEPT mondays. gosh fml.
so i went to the tiong bahru plaza mooncake fair and bought bengawan snowskin mooncakes for dear and his family. $32 :( and its already 10% discounted.. ohmytiann. broke!! but chose the flavours i think dear will love? durian, mango, seaweed (yeah man. SEAWEED. lol.) and strawberry.
so sleepy now...carried so many heavy stuff and now my arms feel like jelly. crappp.
looks like sleeping deeply at his place for an hour earlier on wasnt sufficient... :(
time to shower and get rdy for chingyee to pick me! (:
spin me silly, 4:03 PM.
okay he called me 转牛角尖, and fresh fear overwhelmed me instantly, jotting back those memories and feelings i've tried so hard to put behind the last year.
my ex... used to use these 4 words on me. when dear said those 4 words, i felt like, that's it. it's gonna go down the same road again. afterall, they have the same character. love is but an option to them, not a priority...
ha ha ha.. i really feel horrible now. i dont even know the meaning of those 4 words, but it isnt anything good, based on past experience...
told him to never use it again, because i really hate to hear those words. it makes it feel like everything's gonna be like how my last r/s used to be...
tears.
my ex... used to use these 4 words on me. when dear said those 4 words, i felt like, that's it. it's gonna go down the same road again. afterall, they have the same character. love is but an option to them, not a priority...
ha ha ha.. i really feel horrible now. i dont even know the meaning of those 4 words, but it isnt anything good, based on past experience...
told him to never use it again, because i really hate to hear those words. it makes it feel like everything's gonna be like how my last r/s used to be...
tears.
spin me silly, 3:11 AM.
had ice cream with larry at ion's swensens.
it was my dinner...
and we bumped into basil and kawai and a couple others from the nats team. oh and bernice...
crapped, they all suddenly turned and stare at me! :( i think they recognize me as their fellow teammate's girlfriend, and yes i'm out with a guy, but i never pi tui okay! lol.
oh well. who ask your dear teammate to rather go mj with his friends than bring his emo gf out??
still kinda sad actually. i wish he knew my thinking and how upset i am.
it was my dinner...
and we bumped into basil and kawai and a couple others from the nats team. oh and bernice...
crapped, they all suddenly turned and stare at me! :( i think they recognize me as their fellow teammate's girlfriend, and yes i'm out with a guy, but i never pi tui okay! lol.
oh well. who ask your dear teammate to rather go mj with his friends than bring his emo gf out??
still kinda sad actually. i wish he knew my thinking and how upset i am.
spin me silly, 12:10 AM.
Sunday, September 4, 2011
and sometimes. i really zzz xf. saturday drag my bf go zouk, sunday go my bf house nua and then drag him for mahjong.
last time also, when we wanted to go out together on a saturday, he suddenly calls and ask us to go watch movie with him. its like he's everywhere...
fml.
why the hell am i such emo shit.
last time also, when we wanted to go out together on a saturday, he suddenly calls and ask us to go watch movie with him. its like he's everywhere...
fml.
why the hell am i such emo shit.
spin me silly, 4:58 PM.
dont know why i'm feeling like this.
refusing to pick up his call, refusing to message him.
i'm obviously pissed over something he did last night, but i cant figure out what.. probably too many things.
i feel like...he only remembers me when he's alone. he didn't even text me when he got home safely as promised. is that too much to ask for as his girlfriend??
and i feel so cooped up at home. fucking boring. i wish someone will ask me out. like anyone. so i can stop feeling this. fucked up ttm feeling. urgh. feel like crying seriously.
refusing to pick up his call, refusing to message him.
i'm obviously pissed over something he did last night, but i cant figure out what.. probably too many things.
i feel like...he only remembers me when he's alone. he didn't even text me when he got home safely as promised. is that too much to ask for as his girlfriend??
and i feel so cooped up at home. fucking boring. i wish someone will ask me out. like anyone. so i can stop feeling this. fucked up ttm feeling. urgh. feel like crying seriously.
spin me silly, 2:18 PM.
boyfriend, get outta my head for one hour, will you?
he still hasnt messaged me...i'm afraid he's concussed somewhere out there at zouk.
urgh. the feeling sucks ttm.
i hate one liner replies. i shouldnt even have replied his text.
whatever laa.
f* it.
time to sleep. seriously, why do i keep bothering if he doesn't?!
stupid mel.
he still hasnt messaged me...i'm afraid he's concussed somewhere out there at zouk.
urgh. the feeling sucks ttm.
i hate one liner replies. i shouldnt even have replied his text.
whatever laa.
f* it.
time to sleep. seriously, why do i keep bothering if he doesn't?!
stupid mel.
spin me silly, 4:32 AM.
Saturday, September 3, 2011
On this day of your life, Melissa, we believe God wants you to know ... that you are what you think of all day long.
Day after day your thoughts shape you like dripping water shapes rock. Pay attention to what you are habitually thinking about, - are your thoughts serving you well?
alamak. i'm habitually thinking about him leh. no, its not serving me well!!! :(
boyfriend is complaining how boring the ntu contest at zouk is. LOL.
should ask him to leave and come find me at my place and drive out for supper :P
nahhh. let him get tortured there with his aching hamstrings! hahaha!
Day after day your thoughts shape you like dripping water shapes rock. Pay attention to what you are habitually thinking about, - are your thoughts serving you well?
alamak. i'm habitually thinking about him leh. no, its not serving me well!!! :(
boyfriend is complaining how boring the ntu contest at zouk is. LOL.
should ask him to leave and come find me at my place and drive out for supper :P
nahhh. let him get tortured there with his aching hamstrings! hahaha!
spin me silly, 11:28 PM.
:( dont know where he is.
hates this feeling...
hates this feeling...
spin me silly, 7:09 PM.
paying a price for rough handling... :(
had a great time last night with dear, kor and their group of friends.
had dinner at nydc, which was a little weird for me at first cause i was smacked in the middle of all the girls i dont really know..
then cabbed to kor's place for drinks and games.
li yu, amanda, becca and katherine made me and dear share one cab while they 4 shared one. asked us to go tian mi mi. lol. wth.
so he shared his a-jays with me all the way there as i rested my head on his shoulders.
caught him looking at me with those soft eyes (he thought i was asleep, when i opened my eyes, he quickly turned away in a second! Lol.)
to me, that was the best place on earth to be. on his shoulders, with him looking at me that way. heeee (:
and he bought mooncakes for my family! +1 point. :P
i hope happiness lasts. (:
couldnt find the pink adidas shoebag dear likes at queensway... :(
cant even find it online! the only place that has it, sold out!
liews, why his taste so limited edt kind! TSK.
had a great time last night with dear, kor and their group of friends.
had dinner at nydc, which was a little weird for me at first cause i was smacked in the middle of all the girls i dont really know..
then cabbed to kor's place for drinks and games.
li yu, amanda, becca and katherine made me and dear share one cab while they 4 shared one. asked us to go tian mi mi. lol. wth.
so he shared his a-jays with me all the way there as i rested my head on his shoulders.
caught him looking at me with those soft eyes (he thought i was asleep, when i opened my eyes, he quickly turned away in a second! Lol.)
to me, that was the best place on earth to be. on his shoulders, with him looking at me that way. heeee (:
and he bought mooncakes for my family! +1 point. :P
i hope happiness lasts. (:
couldnt find the pink adidas shoebag dear likes at queensway... :(
cant even find it online! the only place that has it, sold out!
liews, why his taste so limited edt kind! TSK.
spin me silly, 4:05 PM.
Friday, September 2, 2011
bowled like f*** today.
wasnt feeling well plus aching all over from yesterday plus opponents are what? TP 1, currently no.1 on the league table = one of the worst weeks ever. i doubt our team won even 3 points today? LOL. and i bowled like shit. i couldnt even hit pockets. every shot differed ever since david changed my steps yesterday. quickened up my steps and there goes my accuracy :( fml. but hey, my ball speed's 18/19 km/hr now!! :O it was like 15 last week!!!
skin patched the blister on my thumb... cause it hurt pretty bad.. and now my average's 137.8, lower than her by 2 pins.. i feel sad. i really do. sighs.
dear tried to ask if his dad could lend him the car today so that he could pei me for dinner and bowl league, but a pity his dad needed it. kinda miss him. especially when i'm not feeling so well. my skip beats are back...i think from fatigue. slept like most of today away. didnt even hear the once a month "church" bells ringing thingy across the island. :(
supper with teammates Larry, Alex and Daryl today...it was a good session (: although i have this "gonna puke" feeling now. Thanks for the ride home Larry~!!
wasnt feeling well plus aching all over from yesterday plus opponents are what? TP 1, currently no.1 on the league table = one of the worst weeks ever. i doubt our team won even 3 points today? LOL. and i bowled like shit. i couldnt even hit pockets. every shot differed ever since david changed my steps yesterday. quickened up my steps and there goes my accuracy :( fml. but hey, my ball speed's 18/19 km/hr now!! :O it was like 15 last week!!!
skin patched the blister on my thumb... cause it hurt pretty bad.. and now my average's 137.8, lower than her by 2 pins.. i feel sad. i really do. sighs.
dear tried to ask if his dad could lend him the car today so that he could pei me for dinner and bowl league, but a pity his dad needed it. kinda miss him. especially when i'm not feeling so well. my skip beats are back...i think from fatigue. slept like most of today away. didnt even hear the once a month "church" bells ringing thingy across the island. :(
supper with teammates Larry, Alex and Daryl today...it was a good session (: although i have this "gonna puke" feeling now. Thanks for the ride home Larry~!!
spin me silly, 1:50 AM.
