Wednesday, February 2, 2011
if you had a choice, would you go for someone whom you know loves you and probably would for a long while, makes you feel good about yourself, would forgo doing his own stuffs just to accompany you to do whatever you wish to do, would take interests in your likes and dislikes and daily life activities, would be there to lend you a shoulder to cry on whenever you feel down and out, but who in your point of view, isn't cute in any way. in fact, other than his character, everything thing else about him, is the total opposite of the "ideal boyfriend" you had in mind?
Or, would you go for someone whom you admire, someone whom excels at sports, is tanned and lean, everything you would ask for in terms of outer appearance in your "ideal boyfriend" visuals? but who you aren't sure if he'd be there for you when you're at your lowest, care for you like the former does, takes interest in your life, makes you feel good instead of lousy, but whom you think if all works out fine, he's what makes your heart race. he's what's your definition of love. but is this love trustworthy? is this love worth risking for?
Then again, can the feelings for the former one ever develop into love? or would it just be another case of inner guilt from your part, should your heart race for others but him?
would you go with your head, or your heart? pick the one that you know, will probably love you in the long run and care for you, but whom you know you don't love as much, have no idea how much you can possibly love him, and even if you do love him, whether it's out of gratitude or brewed feelings?
or would you risk it all, risk losing the guy who's been there for you, just for the latter, your eyecandy, the one who makes your heart race like it never had? and possible experience love on a whole new level once again? but whom you aren't sure how it'd turn out to be?
if you were me, what would you do?
to be honest, i have no idea which one i'd go for. i'm not sure if i'd be willing to risk it all again. then again, i'm not sure if i can ever love the former one either. yes to me, he's a really really good friend at the moment, but i'm not sure if i'll be capable of giving him the same care and concern or even the minimal attention in the long run.
madd told me to give myself time.
daryl told me to give myself time too.
but madd advised me to try going out with the latter, to see if he's the type of guy i can even ever picture a future with. only then will i have a clearer answer.
daryl told me he'd go for the one who loves him, who'd be there for him in the long run.
what do i want? i need to figure it out...
i'm going through a really rough period in my life, trying to battle with chronic depression issues and it'd be best if i can find someone to rely on enough, to know he would leave me in the lurch on my depressed days. who'd comfort me when i need it. but i cant get into a relationship with a person, not knowing if i can reciprocate in the near future...
Or, would you go for someone whom you admire, someone whom excels at sports, is tanned and lean, everything you would ask for in terms of outer appearance in your "ideal boyfriend" visuals? but who you aren't sure if he'd be there for you when you're at your lowest, care for you like the former does, takes interest in your life, makes you feel good instead of lousy, but whom you think if all works out fine, he's what makes your heart race. he's what's your definition of love. but is this love trustworthy? is this love worth risking for?
Then again, can the feelings for the former one ever develop into love? or would it just be another case of inner guilt from your part, should your heart race for others but him?
would you go with your head, or your heart? pick the one that you know, will probably love you in the long run and care for you, but whom you know you don't love as much, have no idea how much you can possibly love him, and even if you do love him, whether it's out of gratitude or brewed feelings?
or would you risk it all, risk losing the guy who's been there for you, just for the latter, your eyecandy, the one who makes your heart race like it never had? and possible experience love on a whole new level once again? but whom you aren't sure how it'd turn out to be?
if you were me, what would you do?
to be honest, i have no idea which one i'd go for. i'm not sure if i'd be willing to risk it all again. then again, i'm not sure if i can ever love the former one either. yes to me, he's a really really good friend at the moment, but i'm not sure if i'll be capable of giving him the same care and concern or even the minimal attention in the long run.
madd told me to give myself time.
daryl told me to give myself time too.
but madd advised me to try going out with the latter, to see if he's the type of guy i can even ever picture a future with. only then will i have a clearer answer.
daryl told me he'd go for the one who loves him, who'd be there for him in the long run.
what do i want? i need to figure it out...
i'm going through a really rough period in my life, trying to battle with chronic depression issues and it'd be best if i can find someone to rely on enough, to know he would leave me in the lurch on my depressed days. who'd comfort me when i need it. but i cant get into a relationship with a person, not knowing if i can reciprocate in the near future...
spin me silly, 4:21 AM.
