Sunday, May 29, 2011
my day was great. today was one of the days i had the company of dear's and kor's group of friends, and it made me feel a whole lot less lonely. but one thing...if one day me and dear aren't together anymore...i'll probably lose these friends too right? I shouldn't feel too attached to them, isn't it? But they share my love for bowling...and they make me laugh just like my clique does...
mahjonged at eddie's house until 1am today. lol. thank goodness kor was my banker. lost like $20? :| the tiles weren't thrown by me!
dear bowled 10th position overall, the first singaporean in the list. i'm quite proud of him honestly. (: but he's been having the runs all day...hope he'll be well enough to take the long coach journey home tomorrow. and i hope he remembered my souvenior :D
dear god,
please make things better between me and dear? please teach him how to open up to me, to be more expressive and less blunt. sometimes i wish he knew some stuff he said hurts, sometimes i wish he would learn how to sweet talk me a little. i feel a little tinge of envy everytime i see my friends around me, behaving intimately with their boyfriends, being well taken care of by their boyfriends, (like how kenneth blanketed lydia up and fussed over her when she had a headache and felt cold at eddie's), and having their boyfriends around most of the time (Kiff being with Rachel everyday, taking her to USS once she mentions it)...or at least half of the time. it's not right to feel envious, i know that...but i can't help it. I wish dear would share his feelings about me, his thoughts, his dreams, his future... so that i know whether i'll be able to be part of it. I dont want a short term r/s anymore. i need to see a relationship with a stable future...and i wish he'll lemme take a peek into the future...
my boyfriends have always been busy, except the first one i ever had, and they never seem to have enough time to spend with me...either that, or they need more personal space than some other guys need. They just aren't the romantic sort. sighs.
gonna bowl RTC's monthly tournament with kor and edison tmr. haha. 8 pin tap! lemme hit every pocket please. lemme just get top 6? at least that's what kor expects from me. the thing is, i've NEVER bowled any tournament before! (unless you count SIM open which i bowled a 92 for my last game. had totally nowhere to hide my face. T_T" ) :X
mahjonged at eddie's house until 1am today. lol. thank goodness kor was my banker. lost like $20? :| the tiles weren't thrown by me!
dear bowled 10th position overall, the first singaporean in the list. i'm quite proud of him honestly. (: but he's been having the runs all day...hope he'll be well enough to take the long coach journey home tomorrow. and i hope he remembered my souvenior :D
dear god,
please make things better between me and dear? please teach him how to open up to me, to be more expressive and less blunt. sometimes i wish he knew some stuff he said hurts, sometimes i wish he would learn how to sweet talk me a little. i feel a little tinge of envy everytime i see my friends around me, behaving intimately with their boyfriends, being well taken care of by their boyfriends, (like how kenneth blanketed lydia up and fussed over her when she had a headache and felt cold at eddie's), and having their boyfriends around most of the time (Kiff being with Rachel everyday, taking her to USS once she mentions it)...or at least half of the time. it's not right to feel envious, i know that...but i can't help it. I wish dear would share his feelings about me, his thoughts, his dreams, his future... so that i know whether i'll be able to be part of it. I dont want a short term r/s anymore. i need to see a relationship with a stable future...and i wish he'll lemme take a peek into the future...
my boyfriends have always been busy, except the first one i ever had, and they never seem to have enough time to spend with me...either that, or they need more personal space than some other guys need. They just aren't the romantic sort. sighs.
gonna bowl RTC's monthly tournament with kor and edison tmr. haha. 8 pin tap! lemme hit every pocket please. lemme just get top 6? at least that's what kor expects from me. the thing is, i've NEVER bowled any tournament before! (unless you count SIM open which i bowled a 92 for my last game. had totally nowhere to hide my face. T_T" ) :X
spin me silly, 1:58 AM.
