Saturday, May 28, 2011
pms is always the root of misunderstandings, emo-ing and discontentment in a relationship.
which is why i had some misunderstanding with dear yesterday on whatsapp...
There he was, in msia, bowling his ass off under desperado squad, to qualify for master, and back here i was wondering why he didnt message me at the normal time he usually would...so i sent him a terrible whatsapp of my insecurities, which led him to feel uncomfortable ( i wonder what that meant.. :'( ) but he bothered explaining his day to me and his life as a national athlete...that going overseas meant business, not play.
I accepted his reason, and i'm starting to realize what my friend said about my insecurities and fears killing my r/s, could actually be true. I cant bring the past fears and hurt, into my relationship with dear now. it isnt fair to either of us.
I just hope when dear's less busy, he'll actually start caring more about me and taking me out to the places he promised to take me to. i know he needs to focus for now, i'll let him have his way and just be there to support him, play the supportive gf role, so that he knows that he has this number 1 fan out there; that he isnt' going it all alone..... thats the best i can do. (:
and he needs to quit bullying me :'( RAHHH!!! i used to think bullying each other was fun, until it got a little too much at times. i just wish he can show some of his love for me sometimes! lol.
and he made it! he's 5th today! he qualified for the 2nd round! i'm so proud of him! :D
dear God, please let him be top 3 so that my coach, will stop looking down on him...let his hardwork pay off please. And thank you for blessing him today. I'm really grateful. Just please see him through tomorrow too. his body aches and all, make them go away... let him bowl happily. (:
i bought my spare ball today! at U bowling. Brunswick Tzone. And i cant be happier. the drilling was good, i got my 2 ball bag. went bowling at mf with my brother... and managed to close my frames! Yippee! 158,123,185,181! i hope this marks the end of my demoralizing bowling days... i'll work harder to pull my ave up to 180 at least! so that i can finally not feel like a useless president too...even though i'm fairly new and have only bowled like..8 mths...
which is why i had some misunderstanding with dear yesterday on whatsapp...
There he was, in msia, bowling his ass off under desperado squad, to qualify for master, and back here i was wondering why he didnt message me at the normal time he usually would...so i sent him a terrible whatsapp of my insecurities, which led him to feel uncomfortable ( i wonder what that meant.. :'( ) but he bothered explaining his day to me and his life as a national athlete...that going overseas meant business, not play.
I accepted his reason, and i'm starting to realize what my friend said about my insecurities and fears killing my r/s, could actually be true. I cant bring the past fears and hurt, into my relationship with dear now. it isnt fair to either of us.
I just hope when dear's less busy, he'll actually start caring more about me and taking me out to the places he promised to take me to. i know he needs to focus for now, i'll let him have his way and just be there to support him, play the supportive gf role, so that he knows that he has this number 1 fan out there; that he isnt' going it all alone..... thats the best i can do. (:
and he needs to quit bullying me :'( RAHHH!!! i used to think bullying each other was fun, until it got a little too much at times. i just wish he can show some of his love for me sometimes! lol.
and he made it! he's 5th today! he qualified for the 2nd round! i'm so proud of him! :D
dear God, please let him be top 3 so that my coach, will stop looking down on him...let his hardwork pay off please. And thank you for blessing him today. I'm really grateful. Just please see him through tomorrow too. his body aches and all, make them go away... let him bowl happily. (:
i bought my spare ball today! at U bowling. Brunswick Tzone. And i cant be happier. the drilling was good, i got my 2 ball bag. went bowling at mf with my brother... and managed to close my frames! Yippee! 158,123,185,181! i hope this marks the end of my demoralizing bowling days... i'll work harder to pull my ave up to 180 at least! so that i can finally not feel like a useless president too...even though i'm fairly new and have only bowled like..8 mths...
spin me silly, 1:25 AM.
