Wednesday, July 13, 2011
happy 4th month baby. (:
and i say this with a heavy heart.
maybe i should stop being the person who makes dear lose focus in his bowling...
he actually doesnt understand how everytime i'm unhappy, it'll affect his focus on bowling. he doesnt understand why.
i wanna be the one supporting him, not the one making him lose focus on his dreams.
if really need be, i'll set him free and let him see if he can focus better without me by his side, without me on his mind...
he's a confused guy because he wants his dreams, determined to achieve them in the next 3 years. yet he has this gf, and being his first longer relationship, he doesnt quite know how to handle it, and he's quite frustrated over it... over his ability to lose focus in bowling everytime we quarrel...
if dear could juggle between both, i'm sure he'll excel. both in terms of achieving his dreams (because he has full support from me) and also in terms of love (relationship wise). he'll have the best of both worlds...
but he's struggling now because he doesn't know how to cope... will his life be better without me as a distraction factor? :(
if yes, he can go... i dont wanna be the 绊脚石 on his route to achieving his dream... i can support him, only if he's happy with my support. if he's happier alone, i'm willing to suffer the heartbreak and let him go.....
all at the expense of my own heart and soul.
and i say this with a heavy heart.
maybe i should stop being the person who makes dear lose focus in his bowling...
he actually doesnt understand how everytime i'm unhappy, it'll affect his focus on bowling. he doesnt understand why.
i wanna be the one supporting him, not the one making him lose focus on his dreams.
if really need be, i'll set him free and let him see if he can focus better without me by his side, without me on his mind...
he's a confused guy because he wants his dreams, determined to achieve them in the next 3 years. yet he has this gf, and being his first longer relationship, he doesnt quite know how to handle it, and he's quite frustrated over it... over his ability to lose focus in bowling everytime we quarrel...
if dear could juggle between both, i'm sure he'll excel. both in terms of achieving his dreams (because he has full support from me) and also in terms of love (relationship wise). he'll have the best of both worlds...
but he's struggling now because he doesn't know how to cope... will his life be better without me as a distraction factor? :(
if yes, he can go... i dont wanna be the 绊脚石 on his route to achieving his dream... i can support him, only if he's happy with my support. if he's happier alone, i'm willing to suffer the heartbreak and let him go.....
all at the expense of my own heart and soul.
spin me silly, 9:55 PM.
