Friday, July 15, 2011
what i need arent his texts.
what i need is him. his presence.
if texting is an effort, then every couple in the world, will be very happy together. i'm so tired today i dont even wish to act enthusiastic about texting. maybe i simply, secretly wished for his presence. hence the sian-ness. i dont even remember the last time we went on a date. one month plus ago? 5 weeks i guess...
it's come to the point that to stop myself from hurting in his confusion, or thinking about him, im desperately trying to fill my schedule to the brim. so that i wont think "hey, everyone's boyfriends, no matter how huge their dreams are, how tough their trainings are, how they can fall asleep in the car on the way to the train station, but still find the energy to go for supper with their girlfriends. or want to see them all the time... what about mine?" and the conclusion is "dont compare, my dear girl. give him time. if he cant learn to juggle his dreams and you after a while more, then you know you arent important to him, and he isnt worthy of you. you deserve someone who'll actually come look aft you when you're sick, someone who wouldnt scold or get frustrated with you just because you emo and made him lose focus...someone who wants to see you, wants to hear your voice, wants to be with you...any free time he can get. no matter how busy he is. cause he knows you miss him, and he misses you too. not because he only thinks mostly of his own feelings..." i miss the old tiac. i really do. or is this the real him?
f. not gonna emo anymore. i need my life too. (;
isaac, daryl, anna, toby. you guys have worked hard on the westbowl lanes. it sucks ttm. but you guys completed the game. good enough! (: i'm proud of you guys.
watched chiewpang bowled too. nice. haha. it took him so long to recognize me mans. LOL. was i all that weird in a dress, a cardigan, eyeliner, small bag and spectacles?
what i need is him. his presence.
if texting is an effort, then every couple in the world, will be very happy together. i'm so tired today i dont even wish to act enthusiastic about texting. maybe i simply, secretly wished for his presence. hence the sian-ness. i dont even remember the last time we went on a date. one month plus ago? 5 weeks i guess...
it's come to the point that to stop myself from hurting in his confusion, or thinking about him, im desperately trying to fill my schedule to the brim. so that i wont think "hey, everyone's boyfriends, no matter how huge their dreams are, how tough their trainings are, how they can fall asleep in the car on the way to the train station, but still find the energy to go for supper with their girlfriends. or want to see them all the time... what about mine?" and the conclusion is "dont compare, my dear girl. give him time. if he cant learn to juggle his dreams and you after a while more, then you know you arent important to him, and he isnt worthy of you. you deserve someone who'll actually come look aft you when you're sick, someone who wouldnt scold or get frustrated with you just because you emo and made him lose focus...someone who wants to see you, wants to hear your voice, wants to be with you...any free time he can get. no matter how busy he is. cause he knows you miss him, and he misses you too. not because he only thinks mostly of his own feelings..." i miss the old tiac. i really do. or is this the real him?
f. not gonna emo anymore. i need my life too. (;
isaac, daryl, anna, toby. you guys have worked hard on the westbowl lanes. it sucks ttm. but you guys completed the game. good enough! (: i'm proud of you guys.
watched chiewpang bowled too. nice. haha. it took him so long to recognize me mans. LOL. was i all that weird in a dress, a cardigan, eyeliner, small bag and spectacles?
spin me silly, 12:15 AM.
