Wednesday, November 23, 2011
lol. okay. so i havent thrown the bouquet away. wah laooo. i feel wasted more than anything. if i could pluck out the pink teddies and give it to little girls and make their day from it, it's better than throwing it away right? :( shall find a way to make it useful. (:
today's the birthday of someone i used to have a thing for this time last year. cause we had a hell lot in common. lol. although i eventually decided against being anything more than good friends, i'm glad we still talk sometimes..just not like before. well, as the saying goes, "love comes and go, only friendship stays." and i'm glad we didn't turn out like my recent relationship. my ex and i? we're barely even friends now. lol.
just hope for the best for mr. someone out there. hopefully he'll get the bestest birthday of his life just yet! a surprise at his workplace or something. without any ugly nutella monkey cheesecake from a horrible lady baker (who was desperate enough to use the nutella to cover the unevenness and cracks on the cheesecake :X), unlike last year. LOL. (:
and this is why i'm so skeptical of baking another cheesecake for my godbrother. if he sees a big patch of nutella on it, he'd probably understand why already. hahaha. Tsk :(
still debating whether or not to give up the group of friends i got to know while we were together.. whether to go for the group gatherings etc. sighs. because i dont know what kinda emotions will be triggered if i see him for the first time since the breakup. and i'm kinda scared. but come on, i'll have to face him someday too right? why not now?! the earlier i face it, the better anyways. i. really. really. wanna. move. on. for. good. and i'm already trying my very best.
i'm happy that i can actually make myself happy again! i think i finally understand what it means by "take your happiness into your own hands. never rely on anyone else for your happiness." thank you ex boyfriend, because i finally understand what you meant when you told me those lines on mount faber. (:
i know i'm getting over you, just by the fact that i can smile when i look back and think of it all as an experience and a learning journey. with a little more time, i'd probably be able to let go of it all. (: whee. till that day, i shall persevereeeee!
bowled with sy and daryl yesterday. found it so much more effective than going for sim trainings, like seriously.. opened hourly lanes and just tried to repeat consistent shots...was so happy yesterday. (; sighs, how to train consistent release?! i either drop ball or i'm late! tsk.
and then i woke up aching all over today. damnit. shouldnt have bowled 2 hours and 5 games while down with flu. :(
time to learn to pick up spares..cause i'm sick of bowling 130+ averages..#%^#$@#$#
today's the birthday of someone i used to have a thing for this time last year. cause we had a hell lot in common. lol. although i eventually decided against being anything more than good friends, i'm glad we still talk sometimes..just not like before. well, as the saying goes, "love comes and go, only friendship stays." and i'm glad we didn't turn out like my recent relationship. my ex and i? we're barely even friends now. lol.
just hope for the best for mr. someone out there. hopefully he'll get the bestest birthday of his life just yet! a surprise at his workplace or something. without any ugly nutella monkey cheesecake from a horrible lady baker (who was desperate enough to use the nutella to cover the unevenness and cracks on the cheesecake :X), unlike last year. LOL. (:
and this is why i'm so skeptical of baking another cheesecake for my godbrother. if he sees a big patch of nutella on it, he'd probably understand why already. hahaha. Tsk :(
still debating whether or not to give up the group of friends i got to know while we were together.. whether to go for the group gatherings etc. sighs. because i dont know what kinda emotions will be triggered if i see him for the first time since the breakup. and i'm kinda scared. but come on, i'll have to face him someday too right? why not now?! the earlier i face it, the better anyways. i. really. really. wanna. move. on. for. good. and i'm already trying my very best.
i'm happy that i can actually make myself happy again! i think i finally understand what it means by "take your happiness into your own hands. never rely on anyone else for your happiness." thank you ex boyfriend, because i finally understand what you meant when you told me those lines on mount faber. (:
i know i'm getting over you, just by the fact that i can smile when i look back and think of it all as an experience and a learning journey. with a little more time, i'd probably be able to let go of it all. (: whee. till that day, i shall persevereeeee!
bowled with sy and daryl yesterday. found it so much more effective than going for sim trainings, like seriously.. opened hourly lanes and just tried to repeat consistent shots...was so happy yesterday. (; sighs, how to train consistent release?! i either drop ball or i'm late! tsk.
and then i woke up aching all over today. damnit. shouldnt have bowled 2 hours and 5 games while down with flu. :(
time to learn to pick up spares..cause i'm sick of bowling 130+ averages..#%^#$@#$#
spin me silly, 2:19 AM.
