Sunday, November 27, 2011
thank you dear friends. i had lots of fun last night. (;
and i got to know new people too.
kenneth and lydia are like the idea couple to show me what love is actually about...
and i really envy them. and thankful as well, for they made me believe that such love still exists out there...even though i've encountered one setback after another...and currently am still trying to get out of one in which i've been totally messed and played with, and trampled on like dirt...i'm so scared honestly, so scared because as my relationships progress, they seem to treat me worse, guy after guy. it took me so long to trust a person again, but yet he ended up hurting me alot more than how the previous 2 have. okay enough said.
i should stop dating people until i learn how to love myself more than i love others. i need to stop losing my own personality and my own life everytime i fall in love with someone. in other words? i need a backbone. a strong one. no one will like a girl who constantly becomes boring whenever she gets into a relationship. no one likes a clingy girl with little or no opinion at all.
this is all so tiring.
the attempt to move on, to dare to try and trust a person again is so... lets just say i seriously have no energy for these kinda things for now.
whatever will be, will be.
shall study and do more sports in the meanwhile. golf, tennis and swimming are definitely on my list other than bowling!
dont feel like blogging anymore for today le. feeling quite sian tbh.
yay. 9 pin tap tomorrow! (;
and i got to know new people too.
kenneth and lydia are like the idea couple to show me what love is actually about...
and i really envy them. and thankful as well, for they made me believe that such love still exists out there...even though i've encountered one setback after another...and currently am still trying to get out of one in which i've been totally messed and played with, and trampled on like dirt...i'm so scared honestly, so scared because as my relationships progress, they seem to treat me worse, guy after guy. it took me so long to trust a person again, but yet he ended up hurting me alot more than how the previous 2 have. okay enough said.
i should stop dating people until i learn how to love myself more than i love others. i need to stop losing my own personality and my own life everytime i fall in love with someone. in other words? i need a backbone. a strong one. no one will like a girl who constantly becomes boring whenever she gets into a relationship. no one likes a clingy girl with little or no opinion at all.
this is all so tiring.
the attempt to move on, to dare to try and trust a person again is so... lets just say i seriously have no energy for these kinda things for now.
whatever will be, will be.
shall study and do more sports in the meanwhile. golf, tennis and swimming are definitely on my list other than bowling!
dont feel like blogging anymore for today le. feeling quite sian tbh.
yay. 9 pin tap tomorrow! (;
spin me silly, 2:36 AM.
