Sunday, January 15, 2012
and the week went by in a flash.
and i'm still so in love with kz's house. it's like my dream house luh! the whole interior designing was LOVES. wooden wooden feel, akin to Balinese concept. Give you the feeling like you're in a beach villa rather than in a house.
sighs. why am i always so affected by his status updates?! obviously haven't fully gotten over it. i'm getting damn annoyed with myself. URGH.
all thanks to him...
i used to really anticipate love to be like that:
watching the sunset with your other half by the beach
traveling the world with my other half, taking in all the beautiful sights like this.
enjoying each other's company at any point of time.
and eventually get married. and enjoy life together.
but after the recently failed relationship and the mess left behind, all i want now is to be alone. letting no one else into my heart or my life once again. never wanting myself to be in that stupidly vulnerable and trollable position again. i got burnt badly, and i should have known better than to play with fire...
so while everyone is desperate to find someone, i'm like...
yeah, solitary. just wanna be alone. something's wrong with me, isn't it?
i should be panicking, that at age 24, while all my friends are happily attached for years and getting married; while my dad's friend's sons and daughters are all getting married too, and i'm still single. but. contradictorily, i only wanna be away from all this mess, this nonsense. urghh.. happy to be alone.
yeah, just wanna sit quietly and stone alone sometimes. stare into space. listen to the waves, look at the stars. and just well, BE ALONE. :( this feeling is terrible. @#$%#^#
worried over a friend lately. i hope she's feeling better, though no one can feel better in the mess she's in now. sighs, hopefully everything will be alright... at least she has someone who's there for her. and he's someone reliable. envious...
dear friends, please stop sprouting nonsense! stop it or else it's gonna be awkward! :( i don't wanna think so much. so let me off!! :(
okay, dozing off. probably sprouting nonsense again soon. signing off!
and i'm still so in love with kz's house. it's like my dream house luh! the whole interior designing was LOVES. wooden wooden feel, akin to Balinese concept. Give you the feeling like you're in a beach villa rather than in a house.
sighs. why am i always so affected by his status updates?! obviously haven't fully gotten over it. i'm getting damn annoyed with myself. URGH.
all thanks to him...
i used to really anticipate love to be like that:
watching the sunset with your other half by the beach traveling the world with my other half, taking in all the beautiful sights like this. enjoying each other's company at any point of time. and eventually get married. and enjoy life together.but after the recently failed relationship and the mess left behind, all i want now is to be alone. letting no one else into my heart or my life once again. never wanting myself to be in that stupidly vulnerable and trollable position again. i got burnt badly, and i should have known better than to play with fire...
so while everyone is desperate to find someone, i'm like...
yeah, solitary. just wanna be alone. something's wrong with me, isn't it?
i should be panicking, that at age 24, while all my friends are happily attached for years and getting married; while my dad's friend's sons and daughters are all getting married too, and i'm still single. but. contradictorily, i only wanna be away from all this mess, this nonsense. urghh.. happy to be alone.
yeah, just wanna sit quietly and stone alone sometimes. stare into space. listen to the waves, look at the stars. and just well, BE ALONE. :( this feeling is terrible. @#$%#^#worried over a friend lately. i hope she's feeling better, though no one can feel better in the mess she's in now. sighs, hopefully everything will be alright... at least she has someone who's there for her. and he's someone reliable. envious...
dear friends, please stop sprouting nonsense! stop it or else it's gonna be awkward! :( i don't wanna think so much. so let me off!! :(
okay, dozing off. probably sprouting nonsense again soon. signing off!
spin me silly, 3:18 AM.
