Monday, January 30, 2012
lol! look at my creation! hahaha. i was too bored. so i decided to disturb the guys a little. :P
CNY visiting was awesome! although i lost like $30 in ban luck. :(
but overall, it was great! and i got to go to a house i love to visit again. a yearly affair. lol. however, i missed out on my relative's new house. it was demolished and rebuilt.
my siblings told me that there was a theatre room, an infinity pool, days beds for star gazing at night, and that their toilets alone, are bigger than my room. twice the size! :( damnit. half regretting not going to take a look already.
the rich get richer indeed...
i wonder what my house will look like next time? haha. in anyways, i'll definitely wanna do my own interior designing! (; balinese concept ftw.
djokovic won nadal! woohoo! not like it matters since it isn't federer who won. :( but still, djokovic over nadal! (:
it's almost 4 months since the breakup, (today's 30th Jan 2012.. on 31st Jan 2011, my life changed when Ian gave me T's number and told me to wish him happy birthday myself...one year le. look how things have turned out...it's funny how fate likes to play tricks on us..)
oh well, i'm happier these days. happy that i don't have commitments, happy that i don't have any responsibility to uphold, with regards to this aspect. i'm carefree, i don't need to report to anyone, i'm not emotionally bounded by one person. it's just awesomeeeeee. (:
and i'm glad we are slowly starting to talk again. (; i can't say i'm fully over him though...cause...somehow or rather, there's still this little feeling in my heart...that i can't put in words, whenever we talk. but i have accepted reality. we have too many differences. (;
on the other hand, i'm scared of advances from anyone else. i seem to be avoiding everyone who's been trying to advance on me. already 2 and counting...i think i'm being like this cause i like being alone so that i won't get hurt that way again..true story...
especially those who are very fierce/all out in trying to ask me out. like what happened last year and the year before. zZ zZ zZ... :(
wonder what it'll take for me to ever dare to love again?
i don't know and i don't wanna know for now. all i know is that i have to study..i think, like yuan yuan did, i'm gonna put my studies and career first for now. until i can secure my job and all that then start opening my mind to the huge possibilities of getting hurt again. lol..
oh well, look like mum's gonna be happy. she told me to be single for a year. cause she's had enough, seeing me with all the wrong guys for boyfriends. looks like it might actually be achievable this time? lol.
okay. 3.47am. am gonna sleep at least half an hour earlier until i can hit 1.30am/2am bedtime, so that i can get into my study regime. (:
nights nights!!
CNY visiting was awesome! although i lost like $30 in ban luck. :(but overall, it was great! and i got to go to a house i love to visit again. a yearly affair. lol. however, i missed out on my relative's new house. it was demolished and rebuilt.
my siblings told me that there was a theatre room, an infinity pool, days beds for star gazing at night, and that their toilets alone, are bigger than my room. twice the size! :( damnit. half regretting not going to take a look already.
the rich get richer indeed...
i wonder what my house will look like next time? haha. in anyways, i'll definitely wanna do my own interior designing! (; balinese concept ftw.
djokovic won nadal! woohoo! not like it matters since it isn't federer who won. :( but still, djokovic over nadal! (:
it's almost 4 months since the breakup, (today's 30th Jan 2012.. on 31st Jan 2011, my life changed when Ian gave me T's number and told me to wish him happy birthday myself...one year le. look how things have turned out...it's funny how fate likes to play tricks on us..)
oh well, i'm happier these days. happy that i don't have commitments, happy that i don't have any responsibility to uphold, with regards to this aspect. i'm carefree, i don't need to report to anyone, i'm not emotionally bounded by one person. it's just awesomeeeeee. (:
and i'm glad we are slowly starting to talk again. (; i can't say i'm fully over him though...cause...somehow or rather, there's still this little feeling in my heart...that i can't put in words, whenever we talk. but i have accepted reality. we have too many differences. (;
on the other hand, i'm scared of advances from anyone else. i seem to be avoiding everyone who's been trying to advance on me. already 2 and counting...i think i'm being like this cause i like being alone so that i won't get hurt that way again..true story...
especially those who are very fierce/all out in trying to ask me out. like what happened last year and the year before. zZ zZ zZ... :(
wonder what it'll take for me to ever dare to love again?
i don't know and i don't wanna know for now. all i know is that i have to study..i think, like yuan yuan did, i'm gonna put my studies and career first for now. until i can secure my job and all that then start opening my mind to the huge possibilities of getting hurt again. lol..
oh well, look like mum's gonna be happy. she told me to be single for a year. cause she's had enough, seeing me with all the wrong guys for boyfriends. looks like it might actually be achievable this time? lol.
okay. 3.47am. am gonna sleep at least half an hour earlier until i can hit 1.30am/2am bedtime, so that i can get into my study regime. (:
nights nights!!
spin me silly, 3:15 AM.
