2:22 am.
finally stop procrastinating and pulled out my notes to study. realized that i really don't know anything because i've been skipping classes. i'm so doomed. like seriously.
michelle activated my panic button. but i'm not sure if i can even get my third class hons at the rate i'm going, much less my second lower! urghhh.
and no one's gonna go for summer abroad with me... should i still go? or probably go backpacking myself after graduating? i really regret not going last year. i couldn't find any friends who wanted to go last year too. sighs. it's a steep 8k of expenses though, hence the apprehension. i should be earning money for my parents already, not spending more of their retirement fund. :(
24 year old. i seriously feel as though i'm still a kid. or rather, reluctant to grow up. it's not a really nice world out there. :(( but the thought of being able to support myself is a plus point i guess? it's probably just me, but i'm the kind who hate to depend on others as it only makes me weaker as a person. look what happened everytime i tried to rely or depend on someone? disaster. only make me lose myself over and over again. time to put a stop to it! full-stop!
okay. 87 days to go. that leaves me 17.4 days per subject. slap me if i procrastinate anymore.
back to trying to read a chpt of msm!
and yes, i really do not wish to rely on anyone, so please do not make me so dependent on you, because that's the last thing i want now... focus. focus mel. books first! (:
spin me silly, 2:22 AM.