Thursday, March 8, 2012
closing myself out to the world.
just wanna be soliditary.
cause i study better if i don't have all these nonsense in my mind.
bloody irritated with what goes through my mind all day already.
instead of playing the piano nicely i think i will end up banging the keys from the stress and the annoyance at all these thoughts.
URGH. PMS GO AWAY LUH. i have had enough! in super angst mode...
had a talk with a friend who think i've been too much lately, sending the wrong signals when i myself aren't sure of what i'm doing or thinking. and that i should stop it because i'm sinning greatly. and that friend made me feel so guilty, i've been shutting myself out. telling myself to do nothing but study.
sian, the feeling's so deja vu. like how it was with eugene the last time.
fish, my fingers are swelling again..did i play the piano a tad too hard just now?
back to books mel, back to books. you barely studied 3 hours worth of macro today. you haven't even reached IS-LM open economy! that's like fucking slow!?!
just wanna be soliditary.
cause i study better if i don't have all these nonsense in my mind.
bloody irritated with what goes through my mind all day already.
instead of playing the piano nicely i think i will end up banging the keys from the stress and the annoyance at all these thoughts.
URGH. PMS GO AWAY LUH. i have had enough! in super angst mode...
had a talk with a friend who think i've been too much lately, sending the wrong signals when i myself aren't sure of what i'm doing or thinking. and that i should stop it because i'm sinning greatly. and that friend made me feel so guilty, i've been shutting myself out. telling myself to do nothing but study.
sian, the feeling's so deja vu. like how it was with eugene the last time.
fish, my fingers are swelling again..did i play the piano a tad too hard just now?
back to books mel, back to books. you barely studied 3 hours worth of macro today. you haven't even reached IS-LM open economy! that's like fucking slow!?!
spin me silly, 1:18 AM.
