Wednesday, March 14, 2012
fuck. crying.
my mum positively hates me. i just made it a point to go talk to my parents before they slept, and told her i booked tennis, and she just said "don't waste my time" and "don't use my racket" when she knows that her racket is all i've been using/have since i took tennis lessons. i mean, what's wrong with her?! what did i even do to deserve such treatment. it didn't help that she added "why you so stupid" when i forgot to write the bank's name on the cheque i wanna bank in.
dad was there, sis was there. sis shook her head refusing to take sides and went to bed. dad felt unjust for me, and now that i'm back in my room, i hear dad arguing with mum for her horrible attitude. she only does these kinda stuffs to me. like i'm her punching bag or something. but my brother and sister are her angels.
thank god i've dad. he's the only one who's been sticking up for me all these years while i get bullied for nothing by her. i guess if dad weren't around, i'd be abandoned or something. i won't forget the time she told me "i wish i never had a daughter like you". it hurt so much i made it a point never to tell my daughter these kinda things no matter how angry or upset i was with her, if i have a daughter next time.
doesn't help that my calendar prompted me that it's supposed to be my first anniversary with him today if our relationship had worked out. feeling really really low.
think i've been pretty stressed out lately too, cause i realize i have no more time to study.
adding on the pms, *explodes*.
koi koi's first day of work's starting today, all the best. (:
and rachel's bday is today. happy birthday girl~ may the year ahead be a smooth sailing and fun one for you~~~ (:
time to wash my face and get back to studying IS chapter 1...
my mum positively hates me. i just made it a point to go talk to my parents before they slept, and told her i booked tennis, and she just said "don't waste my time" and "don't use my racket" when she knows that her racket is all i've been using/have since i took tennis lessons. i mean, what's wrong with her?! what did i even do to deserve such treatment. it didn't help that she added "why you so stupid" when i forgot to write the bank's name on the cheque i wanna bank in.
dad was there, sis was there. sis shook her head refusing to take sides and went to bed. dad felt unjust for me, and now that i'm back in my room, i hear dad arguing with mum for her horrible attitude. she only does these kinda stuffs to me. like i'm her punching bag or something. but my brother and sister are her angels.
thank god i've dad. he's the only one who's been sticking up for me all these years while i get bullied for nothing by her. i guess if dad weren't around, i'd be abandoned or something. i won't forget the time she told me "i wish i never had a daughter like you". it hurt so much i made it a point never to tell my daughter these kinda things no matter how angry or upset i was with her, if i have a daughter next time.
doesn't help that my calendar prompted me that it's supposed to be my first anniversary with him today if our relationship had worked out. feeling really really low.
think i've been pretty stressed out lately too, cause i realize i have no more time to study.
adding on the pms, *explodes*.
koi koi's first day of work's starting today, all the best. (:
and rachel's bday is today. happy birthday girl~ may the year ahead be a smooth sailing and fun one for you~~~ (:
time to wash my face and get back to studying IS chapter 1...
spin me silly, 12:23 AM.
