Wednesday, March 21, 2012
maybe i should just stay far far away from you.
that way i'll get rid of any confusion i have left.
that way i wouldn't be called the bad girl or something along that line by my mum or my friends because all of them think i'm leading you on and on and on. even though i've made clear my stand that i'm not gonna enter a relationship until i know what i want outta a relationship in the long run. (but i'm still the bad bitch because i'm still making you wait endlessly or so everyone says, for something that might not even materialize in the long run.)
makes me feel like everything i'm doing is wrong now. going out with you also wrong. i don't even know what to do anymore. running sounds like a pretty good option. it's my forte anyway. when i'm unsure and pressurized, just run. the further the better.
maybe that way, i'd be lonelier but at least no one will say a thing about me, at least no one will have a misconception of us while i'm unable to handle any commitments..
how i wish things were the way they used to be last year. all pure and simple. cause i don't wanna lose a soulmate or my dearest brother, should things change.
sometimes i like you, sometimes i get angry with you. sometimes i don't like you.
sometimes i tell myself what would my life be like should you ever walk outta it, and i know the answer without having to think deeply, other times i tell myself not to jeopardize this closely knitted bond we have. because i don't think i can offer anything.mind.
seriously feel like crying every time mum trolls me with such comments.
i'm sorry for leading you on if i am. i just sincerely enjoy your company. even though it gives me confusions each and every time. and i guess, in the current situation and your feelings for me, that it's just wrong. wrong to just enjoy your company like i used to. wrong to just make you waste your time and effort on me. wrong to even be "close" to your family members.
so maybe you should quit being nice to me. cause i don't deserve it. maybe you should quit caring for me too, because you might never get the kind of reciprocation that you want...
soul mates, wrong timing, in the worst kinda situation (of being my gb and his good friend) = my big sin.
soul mates, wrong timing, in the worst kinda situation, making you carry on hoping endlessly while i go through my never ending confusion = my greatest sin.
i feel.... honestly i feel like crying.
it's a heavy weight on my back.
that way i'll get rid of any confusion i have left.
that way i wouldn't be called the bad girl or something along that line by my mum or my friends because all of them think i'm leading you on and on and on. even though i've made clear my stand that i'm not gonna enter a relationship until i know what i want outta a relationship in the long run. (but i'm still the bad bitch because i'm still making you wait endlessly or so everyone says, for something that might not even materialize in the long run.)
makes me feel like everything i'm doing is wrong now. going out with you also wrong. i don't even know what to do anymore. running sounds like a pretty good option. it's my forte anyway. when i'm unsure and pressurized, just run. the further the better.
maybe that way, i'd be lonelier but at least no one will say a thing about me, at least no one will have a misconception of us while i'm unable to handle any commitments..
how i wish things were the way they used to be last year. all pure and simple. cause i don't wanna lose a soulmate or my dearest brother, should things change.
sometimes i like you, sometimes i get angry with you. sometimes i don't like you.
sometimes i tell myself what would my life be like should you ever walk outta it, and i know the answer without having to think deeply, other times i tell myself not to jeopardize this closely knitted bond we have. because i don't think i can offer anything.mind.
seriously feel like crying every time mum trolls me with such comments.
i'm sorry for leading you on if i am. i just sincerely enjoy your company. even though it gives me confusions each and every time. and i guess, in the current situation and your feelings for me, that it's just wrong. wrong to just enjoy your company like i used to. wrong to just make you waste your time and effort on me. wrong to even be "close" to your family members.
so maybe you should quit being nice to me. cause i don't deserve it. maybe you should quit caring for me too, because you might never get the kind of reciprocation that you want...
soul mates, wrong timing, in the worst kinda situation (of being my gb and his good friend) = my big sin.
soul mates, wrong timing, in the worst kinda situation, making you carry on hoping endlessly while i go through my never ending confusion = my greatest sin.
i feel.... honestly i feel like crying.
it's a heavy weight on my back.
spin me silly, 10:19 PM.
