Wednesday, March 7, 2012
my breathlessness always come about whenever i'm stressed out over certain issues, from drinking "excessive" alcohol, impending exams, or whatever confusing or upsetting factors in my life.
and guess what? it's back. because there's every of this factor in my life. the last time i felt like that was sometime last year. that was because of relationship stress. brooding over why my ex acted the way he did with me while we were together. what about now?? oh geez...i think i'm just so stressed out. i wanna run away from everything. it's so tiring sometimes.
48.3kg. still heavy. but at least it's a kg less from my normal weight taken about 2-3weeks ago. oh well. lose weight ftw!
always thought my friends are happily attached, until i realize it's not really all that pretty, the picture i painted in my mind...recently, some of them have been sharing their pains, their frustrations and their sorrows with me.. and i can't help but think back to the times when i was attached over the years, was i really happy then? the insecurities within, having to deal with their jealousy and insecurities, all the fights and quarrels, all the differences, all the compromising, hmm... lol, minus those unhappy periods, were the rest of the happy days worth all the pain?
food for thought i guess. not that i'm pretty much negative, i guess i have been thinking too naively of the world, that everyone's happier than i am in relationships. haha.
barely studied today cause i was talking to finny dear, confiding in her and vice versa...
macro i must start you tomorrow!
Dream High 2 (: AWESOME!!! <3 <3 whatever will i do without k pop? it never fails to get me hyped up and happy again. (:
and guess what? it's back. because there's every of this factor in my life. the last time i felt like that was sometime last year. that was because of relationship stress. brooding over why my ex acted the way he did with me while we were together. what about now?? oh geez...i think i'm just so stressed out. i wanna run away from everything. it's so tiring sometimes.
48.3kg. still heavy. but at least it's a kg less from my normal weight taken about 2-3weeks ago. oh well. lose weight ftw!
always thought my friends are happily attached, until i realize it's not really all that pretty, the picture i painted in my mind...recently, some of them have been sharing their pains, their frustrations and their sorrows with me.. and i can't help but think back to the times when i was attached over the years, was i really happy then? the insecurities within, having to deal with their jealousy and insecurities, all the fights and quarrels, all the differences, all the compromising, hmm... lol, minus those unhappy periods, were the rest of the happy days worth all the pain?
food for thought i guess. not that i'm pretty much negative, i guess i have been thinking too naively of the world, that everyone's happier than i am in relationships. haha.
barely studied today cause i was talking to finny dear, confiding in her and vice versa...
macro i must start you tomorrow!
Dream High 2 (: AWESOME!!! <3 <3 whatever will i do without k pop? it never fails to get me hyped up and happy again. (:
spin me silly, 2:44 AM.
