Friday, March 23, 2012
when i finally gotten rid of my stomachache, sat down and took out my notes...
3am already :(
gonna sleep at 4am.
dream high 2's ending was really...disappointing. the whole show had no conclusion to it. dream high 1 was so much better. come on, to put 4 main casts in a plot is just wrong. stick to 2 if you must!
sighs. looks like i'm not gonna be able to go for my grad trip anymore. no one's game to go :(
i wanna go korea, no one wanna pei me either. tbh, i'm really sad over it...
life didnt go out as i planned it to be while in secondary school. i planned to go ACJC, i planned to get into the top 3 unis and then get attached and be able to go on grad trip with the one i gave my heart to. like a mini honeymoon.
none of that happened. life's tricks.
threw 3 guys into my life, who all turned out to only hurt me.
when will the man of my dreams sweep me off my feet?
or will i be forever alone? :'(
looking at esther's happy face as she flipped through the wedding magazine, i can't help but be envious...she's found the man she wanted to spend the rest of her life with, at a suitable age, at a suitable time...someone she can trust to never hurt her, trust that he'll always be loyal to her, someone to grow old with...
will i meet such a man? is he the one? if he is, why am i hesitating? if he isn't, why am i hesitating too? sighs.
depressing thoughts.
really tempted to ask him to go taiwan with me already. afterall, he hasn't been there. and me? i'm comfortable enough to travel with him. cause he's someone i know that will definitely take care of me.
remembered yy once asked me half a year ago. "mel. would you go on holiday with me if it's gonna be just the 2 of us?"
"errr...maybe? but i think i will only definitely go if it's with kok. cause i'm most comfortable around him." lol. trolled myself totally on that one.
this comfort i feel, is it because he's my godbrother? or something else?
why do i feel so empty whenever we don't talk? empty whenever i try to write him outta my life?
sighs.
if we really ever get together, will i be able to accept all his flaws? will i be able to remain faithful? i can't answer that myself.
it's at this age that i'm no longer looking for a short term relationship, but hopefully one that'll lead to marriage and a lifetime together. so i can't just kid around and hide all the flaws and pretend not to see them...we're different in many aspects as well.
urgh, meolah~! zen zen wakaranai.
okay. wasted 15 mins outta my 1 hour. damnit.
3am already :(
gonna sleep at 4am.
dream high 2's ending was really...disappointing. the whole show had no conclusion to it. dream high 1 was so much better. come on, to put 4 main casts in a plot is just wrong. stick to 2 if you must!
sighs. looks like i'm not gonna be able to go for my grad trip anymore. no one's game to go :(
i wanna go korea, no one wanna pei me either. tbh, i'm really sad over it...
life didnt go out as i planned it to be while in secondary school. i planned to go ACJC, i planned to get into the top 3 unis and then get attached and be able to go on grad trip with the one i gave my heart to. like a mini honeymoon.
none of that happened. life's tricks.
threw 3 guys into my life, who all turned out to only hurt me.
when will the man of my dreams sweep me off my feet?
or will i be forever alone? :'(
looking at esther's happy face as she flipped through the wedding magazine, i can't help but be envious...she's found the man she wanted to spend the rest of her life with, at a suitable age, at a suitable time...someone she can trust to never hurt her, trust that he'll always be loyal to her, someone to grow old with...
will i meet such a man? is he the one? if he is, why am i hesitating? if he isn't, why am i hesitating too? sighs.
depressing thoughts.
really tempted to ask him to go taiwan with me already. afterall, he hasn't been there. and me? i'm comfortable enough to travel with him. cause he's someone i know that will definitely take care of me.
remembered yy once asked me half a year ago. "mel. would you go on holiday with me if it's gonna be just the 2 of us?"
"errr...maybe? but i think i will only definitely go if it's with kok. cause i'm most comfortable around him." lol. trolled myself totally on that one.
this comfort i feel, is it because he's my godbrother? or something else?
why do i feel so empty whenever we don't talk? empty whenever i try to write him outta my life?
sighs.
if we really ever get together, will i be able to accept all his flaws? will i be able to remain faithful? i can't answer that myself.
it's at this age that i'm no longer looking for a short term relationship, but hopefully one that'll lead to marriage and a lifetime together. so i can't just kid around and hide all the flaws and pretend not to see them...we're different in many aspects as well.
urgh, meolah~! zen zen wakaranai.
okay. wasted 15 mins outta my 1 hour. damnit.
spin me silly, 3:02 AM.
