Wednesday, April 4, 2012
forever my dearest godbrother.
i think it's time to draw a line to save both of us from misery. my misery from my confusion, your misery from my confusion.
i've weighed the pros and cons and i rather not risk losing this current relationship i have with you. and i really like you alot alot, but i don't think it's love...
thank you for everything. i don't want us to drift apart because of other feelings involved.
today also marks the day i've been single for half a year. (:
and i'm proud of myself to have survived! although thinking back still makes me upset sometimes...
i practiced the guitar really hard today. and i decided to let him know that that song i was learning, the very first song i'm playing on the guitar? it was actually to surprise him as part of his bday gift. decided to give up on it since...yeah. the little faith he has in me.
so i just sent him a 40 second clip on my "performance" to tell him thank you for everything.
and i hope to make the message clear to nicholas ang too.
i really don't know who's been leaking out to guoyuan that i've been talking to nic everyday till 4am last week.
only 3 people know (excluding esther and seraphine who has no form of contact with guoyuan). and one of them is nic himself.
and i realized guoyuan suddenly turned cold towards me after going for amanda grandma's wake.
if it's nic, i'll be angry.
if it's guoyuan who has broken into my blog and read it, i'll hate him for life.
because i already told him to respect my privacy and that's the least he can do.
i won't even doubt the rest. cause i believe in them.
fml. why do these stuffs always happen to me during exam period? @#@(@!&#&#!
Do not take for granted the people closest to your heart. Nothing is permanent, celebrate them now.
i think it's time to draw a line to save both of us from misery. my misery from my confusion, your misery from my confusion.
i've weighed the pros and cons and i rather not risk losing this current relationship i have with you. and i really like you alot alot, but i don't think it's love...
thank you for everything. i don't want us to drift apart because of other feelings involved.
today also marks the day i've been single for half a year. (:
and i'm proud of myself to have survived! although thinking back still makes me upset sometimes...
i practiced the guitar really hard today. and i decided to let him know that that song i was learning, the very first song i'm playing on the guitar? it was actually to surprise him as part of his bday gift. decided to give up on it since...yeah. the little faith he has in me.
so i just sent him a 40 second clip on my "performance" to tell him thank you for everything.
and i hope to make the message clear to nicholas ang too.
i really don't know who's been leaking out to guoyuan that i've been talking to nic everyday till 4am last week.
only 3 people know (excluding esther and seraphine who has no form of contact with guoyuan). and one of them is nic himself.
and i realized guoyuan suddenly turned cold towards me after going for amanda grandma's wake.
if it's nic, i'll be angry.
if it's guoyuan who has broken into my blog and read it, i'll hate him for life.
because i already told him to respect my privacy and that's the least he can do.
i won't even doubt the rest. cause i believe in them.
fml. why do these stuffs always happen to me during exam period? @#@(@!&#&#!
Do not take for granted the people closest to your heart. Nothing is permanent, celebrate them now.
spin me silly, 2:22 AM.
